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Fuck...today was just as wonderful as the last but instead of just feeling like shit..i had to be around her today..I want so hard to be her friend..but at this time it is just too damn hard. I mean what does she expect from me. and another great moment between me and her..,ha being sarcastic..she was showing me prom pictures of her and her date then there were some pics of them after prom at someones house..whats funny is she told me the day after prom that nothing happend after. mind you this was before i knew she didnt want to be with me but she already knew it she just "didnt have time" to tell me before prom..so she tells me that after prom she just grabbed her car and went home..but judging by the picture it didnt seem like that story was very plausible.. If your reading this..im trying hard to put what happened in the past but how am i supposed to that when your lying to me..about the prom..and even more importantly our whole relationship or shall i say my relationship and your whatever you want to call me..for conversation sake how about call me nothing..because thats what i was to you a "NOTHING" how am i suppost to believe what you tell me now..when a big portion of it have been lies. She is moving on awfully soon too..which reinstates that a was a big fat nothing to her. She told me over the phone that..."this may sound bad but..im not really effected by this..i just wish you were okay..." i dont know if those were her exact words but you get the idea. So you wish i was okay..is that the only reason your concerned or feel bad nothing on you right is that it? ..oh right i forgot this is all my falut cause i lead you on on two occasions and let you go..oh wait that wasnt me ..i can understand how you want everything to be better when you honestly dont care besides the fact that you want me to be better..news flash.."IM NOT GOING TO BE BETTER FOR A WHILE" so move on because i know how much you just cant wait ..as a matter a fact ..i forgot thats right YOU ALREADY HAVE MOVED ON...FUCK THIS im done talking