Drained
The past week have been physically, mentally and emotionally exhausting~ not just for me, but also for my family.
Some things have been said and some things are not allowed to be discussed anywhere else, EVER. And so, I find comfort in livejournal tonight to mark this as my official entry about this week that really changed how I perceive someone that I thought was important in my life.
Dear Jazz,
You had a 'cousin' once, who lived with your Mum for ten years. Everything was great between her and your family, until a month ago when your Mum saw a stash of pills inside her bag, and your Mum was so hurt that she confronted your cousin about this. Your cousin then admitted that she has been married (civil wedding) for a year and a half to a guy who is currently a contract worker in Qatar. She begged for your mum's forgiveness, even reached out here to your dad, to your sister, and then to you. And your dad and your sister were willing to forgive her, granted that she doesn't live in your house with your mum anymore. Your mum, on the other hand, was so mad that she kicked your cousin out because she felt so betrayed and so disrespected, as an elderly and as a standing Mum.
Weeks passed and then your cousin started posting unpleasant things on facebook about your mum. At first, you, your sister and your brother-in-law ignored this and thought that she was probably just upset. More and more posts came up and then you all just knew that she was targeting Mum, but you still didn't do anything about it.
She posted things like - Bitterness is next to ugliness (So you're saying that my mum is bitter? Therefore she has an ugly personality?), "Has anybody ever made a mistake where people made them feel like they are never good enough?", "Vengeance will come to those who can't understand and accept the mistakes that they've done and who continue to do wrong unto others."... and so on.
One morning your sister woke you up, out of her rage, and told you that she was going to send her a really angry message on facebook. It was long and full of substance - no lies, no swear words, just telling her that in all honesty, if you are asking for someone's forgiveness, wouldn't you want to keep waiting for that forgiveness and not turn around all of a sudden and say bad things about that person who you are asking to bestow you their forgiveness? So your sister just told your cousin to shut up and wait for it, don't post any more things and that my Mum has suffered enough - not having anybody defend her side since the entire family is here in Australia and she is there by herself.
"It's time you grow up," - my sister said.
She replied that night, very angry, saying things like - she served us for many years, 24/7, and that my sister should shut up because she doesn't know anything; that she, my cousin, has missed so many opportunities because she thought about OUR family, and not herself and that she did it out of love; that she was probably the only person who wiped someone's ass and didn't go anywhere in life.
You're still angry right now so you can't write everything down... but all you need to remember is that she made your family look like you used her when in fact, your whole family supported her throughout her university life - allowance, tuition, books, laptop, clothes, water, electricity, when she was unemployed, my sister's infamous "$40 flipflops" which caused her her 2hr wage, and many other things.
I don't want to say anymore...
I can't because it all hurts too much still and everything still makes you very very angry.
You wrote a note on facebook, too, out of your rage and rapture.
So this is all I'm saying now:
No matter what happens... do NOT under any circumstances, forget what happened this week for the rest of your life. It is way too important to stand your ground to defend your family against lies and deceit.
You know what she did.
Remember it.
She's not welcome in your family anymore.
It's really a shame because you thought that her being a part of the family would be forever.
But this is her real colour.
Don't change yours. This is your colour. Forever unforgetful of others' harsh words.
-Yourself
Let this be the letter that I wrote to myself tonight that I will read in the future and which will remind me why I should never trust her ever again. For myself and my family.
On other news...
Physically ill - "under the weather" according to Lily from HIMYM. =)
But getting there... getting better.
The cure is more rice, and no more bacon deluxe burger from hungry jacks. And no m+m's crispy's for a little while even if the big share bags are on sale.
Talking about chocolate makes me miss Miss E.G. =)
I miss everyone =(
I miss my Mummy the most.
I love you Mum.
I wish I was there to defend you and ward off all of those that try to bring you down.
I'm there with you in spirit. Full of heart and fire.
I love you.
Some things have been said and some things are not allowed to be discussed anywhere else, EVER. And so, I find comfort in livejournal tonight to mark this as my official entry about this week that really changed how I perceive someone that I thought was important in my life.
Dear Jazz,
You had a 'cousin' once, who lived with your Mum for ten years. Everything was great between her and your family, until a month ago when your Mum saw a stash of pills inside her bag, and your Mum was so hurt that she confronted your cousin about this. Your cousin then admitted that she has been married (civil wedding) for a year and a half to a guy who is currently a contract worker in Qatar. She begged for your mum's forgiveness, even reached out here to your dad, to your sister, and then to you. And your dad and your sister were willing to forgive her, granted that she doesn't live in your house with your mum anymore. Your mum, on the other hand, was so mad that she kicked your cousin out because she felt so betrayed and so disrespected, as an elderly and as a standing Mum.
Weeks passed and then your cousin started posting unpleasant things on facebook about your mum. At first, you, your sister and your brother-in-law ignored this and thought that she was probably just upset. More and more posts came up and then you all just knew that she was targeting Mum, but you still didn't do anything about it.
She posted things like - Bitterness is next to ugliness (So you're saying that my mum is bitter? Therefore she has an ugly personality?), "Has anybody ever made a mistake where people made them feel like they are never good enough?", "Vengeance will come to those who can't understand and accept the mistakes that they've done and who continue to do wrong unto others."... and so on.
One morning your sister woke you up, out of her rage, and told you that she was going to send her a really angry message on facebook. It was long and full of substance - no lies, no swear words, just telling her that in all honesty, if you are asking for someone's forgiveness, wouldn't you want to keep waiting for that forgiveness and not turn around all of a sudden and say bad things about that person who you are asking to bestow you their forgiveness? So your sister just told your cousin to shut up and wait for it, don't post any more things and that my Mum has suffered enough - not having anybody defend her side since the entire family is here in Australia and she is there by herself.
"It's time you grow up," - my sister said.
She replied that night, very angry, saying things like - she served us for many years, 24/7, and that my sister should shut up because she doesn't know anything; that she, my cousin, has missed so many opportunities because she thought about OUR family, and not herself and that she did it out of love; that she was probably the only person who wiped someone's ass and didn't go anywhere in life.
You're still angry right now so you can't write everything down... but all you need to remember is that she made your family look like you used her when in fact, your whole family supported her throughout her university life - allowance, tuition, books, laptop, clothes, water, electricity, when she was unemployed, my sister's infamous "$40 flipflops" which caused her her 2hr wage, and many other things.
I don't want to say anymore...
I can't because it all hurts too much still and everything still makes you very very angry.
You wrote a note on facebook, too, out of your rage and rapture.
So this is all I'm saying now:
No matter what happens... do NOT under any circumstances, forget what happened this week for the rest of your life. It is way too important to stand your ground to defend your family against lies and deceit.
You know what she did.
Remember it.
She's not welcome in your family anymore.
It's really a shame because you thought that her being a part of the family would be forever.
But this is her real colour.
Don't change yours. This is your colour. Forever unforgetful of others' harsh words.
-Yourself
Let this be the letter that I wrote to myself tonight that I will read in the future and which will remind me why I should never trust her ever again. For myself and my family.
On other news...
Physically ill - "under the weather" according to Lily from HIMYM. =)
But getting there... getting better.
The cure is more rice, and no more bacon deluxe burger from hungry jacks. And no m+m's crispy's for a little while even if the big share bags are on sale.
Talking about chocolate makes me miss Miss E.G. =)
I miss everyone =(
I miss my Mummy the most.
I love you Mum.
I wish I was there to defend you and ward off all of those that try to bring you down.
I'm there with you in spirit. Full of heart and fire.
I love you.