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i have been thinking a lot about the oddest things...none of what i am thinking comes together, none of it can be put into simple words...just pure contemplation of what i had, what i want, what i miss... and then there is all the stuff i am always thinking...which is simply i am really starting to hate the "american way" of life...but maybe i am just really really starting to hate the "snellville way"...
thankfully i will be going in the fall...a new start, a new chapter...just a new....sometimes i get mad at myself that i didnt make my lazy ass get into the whole "college" thing last year...then i wouldnt have to be in the hell hole which i am in now...but then i realize how much i have learned about myself and my beliefs and i realize its not so bad....
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lately i have realized that really feel like a part of me is missing...like its a part that can only be filled by a person...yet i dont know who that person is...its just i am 18 and have yet to have any kind of love intrest...i have always told myself i dont want one i am fine the way i am and it would just confuse me and make me someone i am not...but i realize thats wrong...i do want it....but you cant rush love...and dumb as it may sound i feel there is someone out there for me...maybe i know him, maybe hes one of my dearest friends, or maybe i have never met him...then i realize how exciting that is....
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wow did i get super "hopeless romantic" all the sudden...haha...o well i am a girl i have an excuse...
well guess thats it for this rambling update...otherwise life is good just busy...i am so ready for spring break...THE STROKES baby...
ps. rent out on dvd today...my life just got amazingly awesome!
thankfully i will be going in the fall...a new start, a new chapter...just a new....sometimes i get mad at myself that i didnt make my lazy ass get into the whole "college" thing last year...then i wouldnt have to be in the hell hole which i am in now...but then i realize how much i have learned about myself and my beliefs and i realize its not so bad....
~~~
lately i have realized that really feel like a part of me is missing...like its a part that can only be filled by a person...yet i dont know who that person is...its just i am 18 and have yet to have any kind of love intrest...i have always told myself i dont want one i am fine the way i am and it would just confuse me and make me someone i am not...but i realize thats wrong...i do want it....but you cant rush love...and dumb as it may sound i feel there is someone out there for me...maybe i know him, maybe hes one of my dearest friends, or maybe i have never met him...then i realize how exciting that is....
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wow did i get super "hopeless romantic" all the sudden...haha...o well i am a girl i have an excuse...
well guess thats it for this rambling update...otherwise life is good just busy...i am so ready for spring break...THE STROKES baby...
ps. rent out on dvd today...my life just got amazingly awesome!