fear

[life_actor_me]

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irrational fear
i think i developed it the day i turned 19
what happened was unforgettable
can't decide whether it was a traumatic experience or not

initially i thought it was nothing
i could even joke about it on numerous occasions
but when i was back to that place
i just kept thinking that it would happen again
and my mind was just wanting to go
but another part of me wanted to stay

i left in the end
and had many regrets
so predictable of me

skeptical
paranoid
thinking too much
eccentric
neurotic
weird

that's just me i guess