my dear boy

[life_actor_me]

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five days in..
and i am still missing him

that agony
is just unbearable

i will never forget him
walking over to hold my hand
tricking me to open the door
looking back at me when saying goodbye
pulling my hand closer to his mouth when he is hungry
giving me a hug when he is grouchy
walking around when i change him (though it was tiring)
beginning to talk and saying raisins
sitting on his favourite chair
rushing to the door when we say its outdoors
plucking out the petals and slipping it underneath the door
throwing the books behind the shelves
starting to listen to my words and instructions
grumpy face when he is upset
laughing when i play peek-a-boo with him
so many things...

i wish i could remember all these happy moments i had with him
though it was barely one month

and tears started to flow again.
gosh. i really miss him!

C. I really hope to see you again.