Mental Reset...
So, in my sports bra for dance, my boobs look huge. Maybe this is the new answer to the push-up bra. Watch out IPEX. Or whatever brand it is Victoria's Secret advertises. Blah. I don't shop there anymore. I got a card w/them and then never paid anything bc I never got a statement. …so I owed a heck of a lot in late fees. Oops. I paid it back. W/out the late fees. That was their fault.
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I've been having such a hard time lately concentrating on homework… My brain is getting full, and there's not enough energy/capacity to deal w/everything. …You're supposed to delete cookies and temporary files on these computer machines, is there an option like that for us as people, to refresh and start again w/our files? Please…?
I shouldn't complain. I've still got it better than most people.
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So, Last Sunday (when we were in Dville) -(and I blame Joseph for that abbreviation), Pastor was reading out of Matthew 6:25-34. The one where Jesus tells us not to worry, that he will take care of us and whatever our needs may be. And I thought, "Hm, this is totally fitting w/everything that's been going on lately. Cool. Alright Jesus, Thanks". (and yes I talk to Him like that sometimes).
Then last Tuesday I went to a Bible-study thing by Baptist Student Ministry. Pretty cool ppl… Anyway, they were talking about Prayer, but the verse was Philippians 4:6 about doing things prayerfully (I think I explained it right. I need to post these verses…) and there it was again, the whole business of not worrying. But here, He adds that you can't just not worry about it, you have to pray too. That's something I'm guilty of quite often, just not thinking of it, but I don't talk to Him about it. [Insert joke about the person who prayed to win the lottery, but never bought the ticket.]
So, this is proof of just how persistent God is.
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Interesting, we went from the size of my boobs, to talking about God's persistence. Goodness my brain is a mess. …my room also. But that's beside the point.
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As much as I hate to admit it, I'm finding some of this improv stuff w/dance quite relaxing. BN had us do some improve a couple of weeks ago and I left afterwards feeling sooooooo peaceful. However, I am NOT looking forward to this modern Midterm on Wednesday. Blah. Last couple of classes I've felt like crying bc I'm so frustrated. The teach is real nice, but I just don't understand how to just throw myself around. Tell me where what part of the body is supposed to go, and on what count, and I'll give it a try. But, throwing and rolling are not the easiest thing for me. *shrug. I want Jazz dance… I overheard a conversation about how jazz dance is really only used for commercial dance. I wouldn't mind that. Really.
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I miss hearing music on my way to classes. Utep did it, and same w/ MVC. Music and dance was in the same vicinity so I could just sit and listen. Not here... : ( I was so excited the other day bc i saw some guy sitting outside and playing on his guitar. Nothing fancy, just some notes. Made me happy for a moment.
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For one of the choreographers pieces I'm crawling on the floor like in the movies when ppl are in basic training doing the obstacle course thing. (make sense? If not, talk to Kevin.) I've got these weird bruises on my legs and random ones on my arms. How do you bruise the middle of your arm from being on the floor?
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I should be reading "Nibelungenlied" and some Eastern and Pacific Island myths. Not to mention the 4/5 chapters for the Linguistics test next Monday….
Well poo…
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ps. I know you're going to read this in a while, so:
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I have no idea what version I have on this gadget on my computer, but these are one translation's version. If you don't understand it or want another translation, let me know and I'll see what I can find ya…
""Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?
And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. "Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."
-Matthew 6:25-34
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God."
-Philippians 4:6