So that's what they Meant...
"You Complete Me!" So I'm sure you have heard this statement before. I've been hearing it for years... The problem is I don't do commitments.. or well i didn't. So basically when people said things like that.. or said soulmates.. I never really understood it. I couldn't comprehend why anyone would want to be with one person.. the same person.. for thier entire adult life. Wouldn't they get bored? What if they saw someone who was better.. wouldn't they want to "trade in" who they had for this new person? Well as you can see, relationships.. and love. and committing... not so much my cup of tea. Until recently....
So current day in time... I am in a relationship... a commited relationship with someone. Not just anyone.. but this beautiful, intelligent, caring woman.. and she loves me. No questions asked.. no judgments.. she just.. loves me. Sometimes It's unbelievable and sometimes i have to really sit back and wonder how anyone can love me so much. Basically, in a short time, I have fallen head over heals madly in love. All it takes to get me into a good mood is her smile or laugh. Its this unbelievable force. She puts me in my place.. noone has ever done that. She believes in me, and she does things no one has ever done. This may sound pitiful, but she told me i was beautiful, and ::she doesn't know this:: but when she left.. i cried... because.. noone had ever called me beautiful before.
Right now she is in Florida... tomorrow is exactly a month since i saw that smile.. or touched that beautiful face.. kissed those amazing lips..anyway.. the point is I have never missed anyone before. When i moved out of my mom's house at 17.. well it wasnt a big deal. i didnt cry, i dint have home sickness. This girl left.. and i couldnt sleep for weeks.. I cried daily for 2 weeks. I have another 2 months and some days until I get to hold that amazing woman in my arms.
I guess this entry is just to admit to myself that I really was wrong. It is possible to find that one person to which you want to spend the rest of your life with. in fact she made it quite clear to me.. that I never want anyone else... ever again. I asked her to marry me.. yes.. seems soon.. but nothing has never felt so right.. and when she said yes.. god.. that word has never sounded so sweet. So now.. me.. the person who swore they would never settle down.. I am engaged.. and in love.. and happy. truly happy. She is the piece of me that was missing.. and now I am whole.
I love you Tara-Lynn! With all of my heart!
So current day in time... I am in a relationship... a commited relationship with someone. Not just anyone.. but this beautiful, intelligent, caring woman.. and she loves me. No questions asked.. no judgments.. she just.. loves me. Sometimes It's unbelievable and sometimes i have to really sit back and wonder how anyone can love me so much. Basically, in a short time, I have fallen head over heals madly in love. All it takes to get me into a good mood is her smile or laugh. Its this unbelievable force. She puts me in my place.. noone has ever done that. She believes in me, and she does things no one has ever done. This may sound pitiful, but she told me i was beautiful, and ::she doesn't know this:: but when she left.. i cried... because.. noone had ever called me beautiful before.
Right now she is in Florida... tomorrow is exactly a month since i saw that smile.. or touched that beautiful face.. kissed those amazing lips..anyway.. the point is I have never missed anyone before. When i moved out of my mom's house at 17.. well it wasnt a big deal. i didnt cry, i dint have home sickness. This girl left.. and i couldnt sleep for weeks.. I cried daily for 2 weeks. I have another 2 months and some days until I get to hold that amazing woman in my arms.
I guess this entry is just to admit to myself that I really was wrong. It is possible to find that one person to which you want to spend the rest of your life with. in fact she made it quite clear to me.. that I never want anyone else... ever again. I asked her to marry me.. yes.. seems soon.. but nothing has never felt so right.. and when she said yes.. god.. that word has never sounded so sweet. So now.. me.. the person who swore they would never settle down.. I am engaged.. and in love.. and happy. truly happy. She is the piece of me that was missing.. and now I am whole.
I love you Tara-Lynn! With all of my heart!