The Ten Spot: Fear Itself

[lieu_murphy]

The Ten Most Frightening Moments of My Life

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[trust_issue]

01. The day I realized my mother was never coming back.

How old were you?

[lieu_murphy]

I was twelve.

[trust_issue]

That's young. I'm sorry. If you mind me asking...how?

[lieu_murphy]

She left my dad. Just left, nothing more than that.

[trust_issue]

Do you still have contact?

[lieu_murphy]

Nope. I haven't heard from my mother in 23 years.

[trust_issue]

You mean she just...disappeared?

[lieu_murphy]

No. She left. Dropped me off at my Grandma's in the morning and then drove away. She's not dead, I check morgue records and death certificates every years, she never turns up. I even check for updates on Jane Does. My mother left. End of story.

[trust_issue]

I'm so sorry. I know this might sound insensitive but I can't wrap my brain around a mother abandoning her child. Did you ever figure out why?

[lieu_murphy]

I don't know for sure, but my guess is it had to do with how much my dad worked and my mother was tired of being ignored.

[trust_issue]

You're father was a cop.

[lieu_murphy]

Yes, he's retired now.

[trust_issue]

The department is hard on marriages. It was on my parent's too. My mother compensated by having an affair...at least that I know of. Ironically, she picked another cop....just that police officer didn't think a cop's salary was thanks enough for a job well done.

[lieu_murphy]

I know, the job ruined my marriage too. Never cheated though, never got that far.

[trust_issue]

It make you wonder if the calling of the department should come with the same vow of chasity The Church comes with...but then again....there's nothing like a guy with a badge.

[lieu_murphy]

There is an oath they make us swear, almost like a vow of sorts. I don't think anyone would be a cop if it also came with a chastity vow.