its over now...

[liesmakemehappy]

last night really was fucking scary.
i wish it was easy to just see every
aspect of a person all at once way way
way fucking ahead of time, but unfortunately
its not. you have to let it run its course.
this one just wasn't how i thought it would
go, not after everything, not after all i
was told, and not even after some things
that have happend. this time i really get it,
i really see whats there, and i have to be
done. id be lying to say that i want to be done
but i cant stay in this anymore its just
getting worse and worse for the both of us,
and i love him too much to let him continue
this path with me so im letting him go.
maybe we are made for each other, but for
now and probably forever we can't have what
we both do truly want.