i dont get it
for like a week or week and a half ive been so happy,
i got my dream job out of nowhere, my relationship has
been like a dream, my friends were chill, the mood was chill,
then a couple of days ago i got into it with jackie and now
everything is just a hot mess.
i was supposed to chill with jackie but then i got called into
work as he was getting out of work. i went in and planned to see
him later. i had had a stupid tiff with justin but it was nothing
serious and i told his roomie to tell him i went to work because i
couldnt reach him. i worked for five hours then got the car and decided
i didnt want to go to the concert just give justin an evil glare because
that was just stupid and pointless and i was done fighting with him
over something so stupid that i dont even remember what it was. i told
jackie that i was just gonna drive around and get him when he called me back.
he said he wanted me to go but i really wasnt feeling it then he said hed
call around 830 or 845 so i was just waiting around for him. after 9passed i
figured that he just wanted to chill with meg and savannah and enjoy the band
so i was like ok its no big and got a call from george and decided to take him
home from work instead. then around 918 jackie calls me and i missed it because my
music, picked up george then was like its cool i dont feel like it chill ill see
you tomorow. jackie then was sure i was mad at him and got pissed that i was like
whatever do your thing and told me i was mad at him. i told him i wasnt, he told me
i was, i said i wasnt and that it had happend before and i was just tired of waiting
and figured i could just see him another day. he got really upset and just was so
sure i was mad at him and just couldnt stop telling me that i was. i hung up because i
was getting annoyed and was trying to drive all at once.
time goes by justin calls me and says that someone told him that i got drunk and
was joking about using him for sex so i wouldnt sleep with other people. i told him
wow it wasnt even like that at all. whoever told him made it sound like i just want
his dick and nothing more, which is funny because the reason why i love making love
with justin is because how much i care about him and not because his dick is huge.
they must have left that part of the story out because there were only two people
there when that happend though they still deny saying anything about and we spoke
at length about the main reason i go to him is because i love him so much and there
is such an emotional part to the act that i just love it so much. funny how the main
point of me calling him got left out when you happen to be mad at me.
its ridiculous that you can actually still deny saying anything to him when he tells me
everything you say, sometimes right in front of you and you still deny it. i couldnt
even really believe that you had been talking shit about me the whole time until last
night when he went into details about what you said thats why we're not best friends. you
dont talk shit about someone for years, deny it the whole time even when there's no longer
a point to deny it, and then question how i could so easily give up a friendship that is
completely based on the lie that i could trust you that you didnt judge me that you didnt
look down on me. youve made me look like a whore to him this whole time and i didnt even
consider it being true til now. im not immature, you are. you cant even face up to things
that youve done wrong. you wont admit to talking shit, you wont admit to being silly and
getting upset for me making other plans when youve been doing it all along and i havent
been even giving you shit about it for the longest time. youre not my friend and im upset
about it, but i cant take back what youve been saying or how it makes me feel or how it
messes up my life. i havent been bringing drama all summer. i was depressed and suicidal
a month ago. i fucked up, i faced up to it, i apologized for my irritability even though
its a fucking side effect to being depressed and i couldnt control it. i chilled down. ive
been staying in when i have been in a bad mood. i dont even bother to pick up my phone if
i think im sad or just in a bad mood. i think before i speak. i apologize and own up to
the mistakes and shitty things i do. you just started to tell me all summer you just bring
drama or you just pick fights or you just get aggravated easily. you dont face up to anything
you do wrong these days. you just blame everything on me. i havent even blamed anything on you.
im not going to be your friend because i just found out this whole time the person who i
trusted has just been a lie. i said that i thought people changed and that i didnt so much at
the very beginning of summer when you and justin both told me i was pretty much the same and
then i told you that i had changed that i had gone through stuff at school and it had effected me. you agreed remember that. you get angry with me, you talk shit about me, i found out, now
its over. thats it.
i dont get how justin can even stomach a word you say to him about me when he knows that you
all say shit about him too. i defend him. he is part of the reason why we fight because i am always defending him from the shit yall say, but he hears one thing from you and then i get
an earfull of what the fucks joyce. we got in a stupid fight we fixed it we talked it was all
good. you called me today and i think you just forgot it and it threw me a bit, but mainly im
just done with being hurt by people talking shit about me and then you hanging out with them.
you might as well just tell me im a whore because if they basically say that then you hang with
them and dont defend me you pretty much are doing just that and that hurts. how is that not
understandable? i get that you dont think that this whole me being done with them thing is gonna
last but i swear on my grandpas grave that it is. i dont need this in my life. we were happy
when it was just you and me chilling with each other and just taking it day by day then a stupid
fight we had got mixed in with the mess and now were here. i figure either were gonna get out of
this or we will seperately get out of this. i prefer the first route, how about you?
i got my dream job out of nowhere, my relationship has
been like a dream, my friends were chill, the mood was chill,
then a couple of days ago i got into it with jackie and now
everything is just a hot mess.
i was supposed to chill with jackie but then i got called into
work as he was getting out of work. i went in and planned to see
him later. i had had a stupid tiff with justin but it was nothing
serious and i told his roomie to tell him i went to work because i
couldnt reach him. i worked for five hours then got the car and decided
i didnt want to go to the concert just give justin an evil glare because
that was just stupid and pointless and i was done fighting with him
over something so stupid that i dont even remember what it was. i told
jackie that i was just gonna drive around and get him when he called me back.
he said he wanted me to go but i really wasnt feeling it then he said hed
call around 830 or 845 so i was just waiting around for him. after 9passed i
figured that he just wanted to chill with meg and savannah and enjoy the band
so i was like ok its no big and got a call from george and decided to take him
home from work instead. then around 918 jackie calls me and i missed it because my
music, picked up george then was like its cool i dont feel like it chill ill see
you tomorow. jackie then was sure i was mad at him and got pissed that i was like
whatever do your thing and told me i was mad at him. i told him i wasnt, he told me
i was, i said i wasnt and that it had happend before and i was just tired of waiting
and figured i could just see him another day. he got really upset and just was so
sure i was mad at him and just couldnt stop telling me that i was. i hung up because i
was getting annoyed and was trying to drive all at once.
time goes by justin calls me and says that someone told him that i got drunk and
was joking about using him for sex so i wouldnt sleep with other people. i told him
wow it wasnt even like that at all. whoever told him made it sound like i just want
his dick and nothing more, which is funny because the reason why i love making love
with justin is because how much i care about him and not because his dick is huge.
they must have left that part of the story out because there were only two people
there when that happend though they still deny saying anything about and we spoke
at length about the main reason i go to him is because i love him so much and there
is such an emotional part to the act that i just love it so much. funny how the main
point of me calling him got left out when you happen to be mad at me.
its ridiculous that you can actually still deny saying anything to him when he tells me
everything you say, sometimes right in front of you and you still deny it. i couldnt
even really believe that you had been talking shit about me the whole time until last
night when he went into details about what you said thats why we're not best friends. you
dont talk shit about someone for years, deny it the whole time even when there's no longer
a point to deny it, and then question how i could so easily give up a friendship that is
completely based on the lie that i could trust you that you didnt judge me that you didnt
look down on me. youve made me look like a whore to him this whole time and i didnt even
consider it being true til now. im not immature, you are. you cant even face up to things
that youve done wrong. you wont admit to talking shit, you wont admit to being silly and
getting upset for me making other plans when youve been doing it all along and i havent
been even giving you shit about it for the longest time. youre not my friend and im upset
about it, but i cant take back what youve been saying or how it makes me feel or how it
messes up my life. i havent been bringing drama all summer. i was depressed and suicidal
a month ago. i fucked up, i faced up to it, i apologized for my irritability even though
its a fucking side effect to being depressed and i couldnt control it. i chilled down. ive
been staying in when i have been in a bad mood. i dont even bother to pick up my phone if
i think im sad or just in a bad mood. i think before i speak. i apologize and own up to
the mistakes and shitty things i do. you just started to tell me all summer you just bring
drama or you just pick fights or you just get aggravated easily. you dont face up to anything
you do wrong these days. you just blame everything on me. i havent even blamed anything on you.
im not going to be your friend because i just found out this whole time the person who i
trusted has just been a lie. i said that i thought people changed and that i didnt so much at
the very beginning of summer when you and justin both told me i was pretty much the same and
then i told you that i had changed that i had gone through stuff at school and it had effected me. you agreed remember that. you get angry with me, you talk shit about me, i found out, now
its over. thats it.
i dont get how justin can even stomach a word you say to him about me when he knows that you
all say shit about him too. i defend him. he is part of the reason why we fight because i am always defending him from the shit yall say, but he hears one thing from you and then i get
an earfull of what the fucks joyce. we got in a stupid fight we fixed it we talked it was all
good. you called me today and i think you just forgot it and it threw me a bit, but mainly im
just done with being hurt by people talking shit about me and then you hanging out with them.
you might as well just tell me im a whore because if they basically say that then you hang with
them and dont defend me you pretty much are doing just that and that hurts. how is that not
understandable? i get that you dont think that this whole me being done with them thing is gonna
last but i swear on my grandpas grave that it is. i dont need this in my life. we were happy
when it was just you and me chilling with each other and just taking it day by day then a stupid
fight we had got mixed in with the mess and now were here. i figure either were gonna get out of
this or we will seperately get out of this. i prefer the first route, how about you?