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oh my god how time changes things.
i was bored into numbness a few months ago, and now i am busy enough to be near unable to deal with it all. i am putting so much energy into firestorm, so much time into work (both there and the answering service), and getting paid next to nothing, and its crazy-town!
i am living a good life, but just need to step back and see my actions strung together instead of individually. namely, i need to stop volunteering to take people's shifts. especially before we are being paid anything. the string of work days im in the middle of presently goes
Wednesday - Firestorm, Answering service (4 hrs at firestorm, 12 at the Answering service)
Friday - Firestorm
Saturday - Answering service
Sunday - Firestorm
Monday - Firestorm
Tuesday - Firestorm
Thursday - Firestorm
Friday - Firestorm
Saturday - Firestorm, Answering service (yes, thats a 4pm till 8am work spread)
Sunday - Firestorm
Monday - Firestorm
aka: 108 hrs of work in 13 days.
that is too many. and especially too many for almost none of them to be paid!! and considering that those are just the shift hours at firestorm... that doesnt include all the time that is put into meetings, the fact that i am the Space point person and thus deal with all space related issues, or that i am baking there when i'm off shift too.
anyways, i've also been able to spend a decent piece of time with the social networking. i've had Kristin P. over for a day and night, Lindsay (i love you) over for a night, spent time at Wednesday potlucks at (sh)eli's place, Kristin H. is coming over this thursday, and we are gonna cook dinner, and i've been able to maintain my 2x a week dance schedule (gonna be 3x as soon as i have tuesdays open again) as well as painting regularly (if not for long intervals).
What i need to start working in is learning fiddle again. I was working on it when i was in school, and then again, a little, when i was at home bored all day. but somehow its harder for me to get motivated about something when i'm not doing anything else... so. i think that if'n i just give it 2 or 3 hours a week (thats not that much), that i can really start to make some progress. i always have these noble goals of doing things while working at the answering service... but somehow its really hard to. i promised myself i'd spend time doing push-ups and sit-ups during the night... that seemed simple enough. but every morning i walk out of the office realizing that i hadn't done a single one. i meant to write here more. i dont. i meant to read scholarly, smart things. i havent yet. so... just doing it is the best way to do it. starting is the hard part... maintaining is easy.
anyways. i'm poor. living off tips from firestorm (and street kids tip next to nothing [fuckers]). but im maintaining, and happier than i've ever been in my life. school was really valuable to me. but i think that it is because i am no longer there that i'm doing so well. being out and able to live my life has put me in such a better place. and its wonderful.
Oh, and i keep seeing old friends//acquaintiances on the street. in the span of 2 days i saw Caity Brown, from highschool, 'Beki' from John C. Campbell, Hayden from NCSA, and Stephanie Harp (Golden now i believe) on the street. it was awesome. i exchanged didgits with 'em all... but we'll see who i hear from. i think i only got 'beki's number in return. so...
anyways.
shits good.
<3
eli
i was bored into numbness a few months ago, and now i am busy enough to be near unable to deal with it all. i am putting so much energy into firestorm, so much time into work (both there and the answering service), and getting paid next to nothing, and its crazy-town!
i am living a good life, but just need to step back and see my actions strung together instead of individually. namely, i need to stop volunteering to take people's shifts. especially before we are being paid anything. the string of work days im in the middle of presently goes
Wednesday - Firestorm, Answering service (4 hrs at firestorm, 12 at the Answering service)
Friday - Firestorm
Saturday - Answering service
Sunday - Firestorm
Monday - Firestorm
Tuesday - Firestorm
Thursday - Firestorm
Friday - Firestorm
Saturday - Firestorm, Answering service (yes, thats a 4pm till 8am work spread)
Sunday - Firestorm
Monday - Firestorm
aka: 108 hrs of work in 13 days.
that is too many. and especially too many for almost none of them to be paid!! and considering that those are just the shift hours at firestorm... that doesnt include all the time that is put into meetings, the fact that i am the Space point person and thus deal with all space related issues, or that i am baking there when i'm off shift too.
anyways, i've also been able to spend a decent piece of time with the social networking. i've had Kristin P. over for a day and night, Lindsay (i love you) over for a night, spent time at Wednesday potlucks at (sh)eli's place, Kristin H. is coming over this thursday, and we are gonna cook dinner, and i've been able to maintain my 2x a week dance schedule (gonna be 3x as soon as i have tuesdays open again) as well as painting regularly (if not for long intervals).
What i need to start working in is learning fiddle again. I was working on it when i was in school, and then again, a little, when i was at home bored all day. but somehow its harder for me to get motivated about something when i'm not doing anything else... so. i think that if'n i just give it 2 or 3 hours a week (thats not that much), that i can really start to make some progress. i always have these noble goals of doing things while working at the answering service... but somehow its really hard to. i promised myself i'd spend time doing push-ups and sit-ups during the night... that seemed simple enough. but every morning i walk out of the office realizing that i hadn't done a single one. i meant to write here more. i dont. i meant to read scholarly, smart things. i havent yet. so... just doing it is the best way to do it. starting is the hard part... maintaining is easy.
anyways. i'm poor. living off tips from firestorm (and street kids tip next to nothing [fuckers]). but im maintaining, and happier than i've ever been in my life. school was really valuable to me. but i think that it is because i am no longer there that i'm doing so well. being out and able to live my life has put me in such a better place. and its wonderful.
Oh, and i keep seeing old friends//acquaintiances on the street. in the span of 2 days i saw Caity Brown, from highschool, 'Beki' from John C. Campbell, Hayden from NCSA, and Stephanie Harp (Golden now i believe) on the street. it was awesome. i exchanged didgits with 'em all... but we'll see who i hear from. i think i only got 'beki's number in return. so...
anyways.
shits good.
<3
eli