lists lists lists, numbered lists
1) I punched a girl on Friday night. unfortunately it wasn't some stranger at the bar, it was one of Saurabh's bitch friends. she deserved it. but the knuckle-on-face SMACK was not nearly as satisfying as I had imagined.
then she was whining and crying that she had a bloody and broken nose (pity me, pity me). i told her she was just being dramatic and to just shut the fuck up already. then she continued with the racist remarks (which was the reason I lost my temper to her to begin with) which was a pretty sad attempt. if you're gonna be racist, don't be a politically correct racist and call me some "blahblahblah ASIAN" with an attitude in your voice, please. at least call me a chink.
she said, between tears, that her parents used to beat her and that my punch brought back all these bad memories (pity me, pity me). but eric d had informed me earlier that she is a compulsive liar and does anything for attention, so while I outwardly showed compassion and said I should not have responded that way, inside I thought, your parents should have kept going until you died.
2) went out with Louis last night. suuuuuch a cutie pie. he did his hair all fancy, so adorable. we went to Madame X, which I think is my new favorite bar in the West village - has the bar if you feel just like sitting/drinking, has a loud DJ and smallish area to dance, if you feel like dancing, and has couches in the dimly-lit back area if you feel like lounging.
we started at the bar, talked, drank, friendly. moved to the intimate couches, got to touching, to tickling, to head massages somehow, and then he kissed me and we started making out. which wasn't really a surprise. we both knew it was gonna happen since the last time we hung out. anyways we went to his place and I stayed the night.
he is kind of a closed-mouth kisser.
spent the morning lying in bed watching the fourth Pirates of the Carribean movie and some "Dollhouse" episodes. Then around noon. we went to Joe's Pizza. we got a couple slices each. it was quite yummy. then he walked me to the train, I debated whether to give him a peck goodbye, but opted for a friendly hug (he kissed me on the cheek). I think it was a bad idea to sleep with him but I think he's really cool. i hope I see him again soon, in a group setting or whatever.
3) Dan and I are going bowling on monday night. I realize I have now been downgraded to weeknights. it's all right though, bowling's fun.
4) Caitlin and I are watching a movie Tues, not sure which yet. but for living in the same city, I almost hardly ever see her so yay.
5) Carol and I are seeing New Year's Eve (or is it New Year's Day?) on Wednesday. should be cutesy romantic fun.
6) I had reconnected with Eric D before Fri, thinking I didn't give him a good chance last time. but after I punched his friend (mutual friend w/ Saurabh) I think he probably doesn't like me anymore. he did walk me home that night instead of her, but I think he was just trying to be nice and divide up the quarrel. anyways it's ok bc while he's super gentlemanly and very mature/calm/patient (which clearly i am not) .. he doesn't really have an edge or quirk that I know of yet. I like those quirks, in dan, in louis. without one is kind of dull.
I was feeling pretty shitty about #1, not because I felt sorry for the girl, but because I felt bad for ruining the end of Saurabh's bday drinks & for Eric's judgment of me. but then I talked to Dan and Louis (and now Bryan, who has now heard. "A friend mentioned your little altercation on Friday night.. respect, slugger :-)" - word travels!) who all seem to side with me in that she did have it coming, and are sending thoughts of surprise that I, a meek girl who seems peaceful (at least to people in NY who don't yet know me well), could possibly get angry enough to hit someone... rather than thoughts of judgment. so i feel better.
I could have responded better than w/ violence, but just saying.. I've never mistreated anyone who didn't deserve it.
I've been thinking of going to therapy for anger management/temper tho. don't think I can afford to, unfortunately.
then she was whining and crying that she had a bloody and broken nose (pity me, pity me). i told her she was just being dramatic and to just shut the fuck up already. then she continued with the racist remarks (which was the reason I lost my temper to her to begin with) which was a pretty sad attempt. if you're gonna be racist, don't be a politically correct racist and call me some "blahblahblah ASIAN" with an attitude in your voice, please. at least call me a chink.
she said, between tears, that her parents used to beat her and that my punch brought back all these bad memories (pity me, pity me). but eric d had informed me earlier that she is a compulsive liar and does anything for attention, so while I outwardly showed compassion and said I should not have responded that way, inside I thought, your parents should have kept going until you died.
2) went out with Louis last night. suuuuuch a cutie pie. he did his hair all fancy, so adorable. we went to Madame X, which I think is my new favorite bar in the West village - has the bar if you feel just like sitting/drinking, has a loud DJ and smallish area to dance, if you feel like dancing, and has couches in the dimly-lit back area if you feel like lounging.
we started at the bar, talked, drank, friendly. moved to the intimate couches, got to touching, to tickling, to head massages somehow, and then he kissed me and we started making out. which wasn't really a surprise. we both knew it was gonna happen since the last time we hung out. anyways we went to his place and I stayed the night.
he is kind of a closed-mouth kisser.
spent the morning lying in bed watching the fourth Pirates of the Carribean movie and some "Dollhouse" episodes. Then around noon. we went to Joe's Pizza. we got a couple slices each. it was quite yummy. then he walked me to the train, I debated whether to give him a peck goodbye, but opted for a friendly hug (he kissed me on the cheek). I think it was a bad idea to sleep with him but I think he's really cool. i hope I see him again soon, in a group setting or whatever.
3) Dan and I are going bowling on monday night. I realize I have now been downgraded to weeknights. it's all right though, bowling's fun.
4) Caitlin and I are watching a movie Tues, not sure which yet. but for living in the same city, I almost hardly ever see her so yay.
5) Carol and I are seeing New Year's Eve (or is it New Year's Day?) on Wednesday. should be cutesy romantic fun.
6) I had reconnected with Eric D before Fri, thinking I didn't give him a good chance last time. but after I punched his friend (mutual friend w/ Saurabh) I think he probably doesn't like me anymore. he did walk me home that night instead of her, but I think he was just trying to be nice and divide up the quarrel. anyways it's ok bc while he's super gentlemanly and very mature/calm/patient (which clearly i am not) .. he doesn't really have an edge or quirk that I know of yet. I like those quirks, in dan, in louis. without one is kind of dull.
I was feeling pretty shitty about #1, not because I felt sorry for the girl, but because I felt bad for ruining the end of Saurabh's bday drinks & for Eric's judgment of me. but then I talked to Dan and Louis (and now Bryan, who has now heard. "A friend mentioned your little altercation on Friday night.. respect, slugger :-)" - word travels!) who all seem to side with me in that she did have it coming, and are sending thoughts of surprise that I, a meek girl who seems peaceful (at least to people in NY who don't yet know me well), could possibly get angry enough to hit someone... rather than thoughts of judgment. so i feel better.
I could have responded better than w/ violence, but just saying.. I've never mistreated anyone who didn't deserve it.
I've been thinking of going to therapy for anger management/temper tho. don't think I can afford to, unfortunately.