Spies Like Us
PBS spy show kicks my ass... this has to be the most fun reality show ever... it's not fun and games... which is why it's so great... I now have a ton of premeditated questions for my own Father who spied for the greater good.
Profile: Doc NYC... now here's a guy who I am bemused by. In two weeks time, I am to meet him finally while staying in Manhattan before my procedure... he's started his residency in NYc two weeks ago and is for the most part exhausted and entrenched... the general nature of a doctor is emotionally unattached... though I know I have some effect on him... some. I've had to build his trust and he has continually surprised me. Even going as far as calling the ICU directly with his prestige (and my consent) to find out more about my cousins desperate situation. I know this isn't the flu .. it's open heart, but hearing his calming voice with the innate facts validating the crucial circumstances I find a retreat from my selfish abuse of my own thoughts. He has worked very very hard to where he is and will only be happy working in this genre because it's who he is... I respect and honor that in anyone who values their life and profession...
I am unraveling him... happily - he's patiently pacing for my arrival... waiting for the trust to waver - I haven't seen Paul in a month...he's ancy for my time, but he knows it's not what it should be... and I haven't missed him -red flags have to be up by now... I can only go forward with what fate and good decisions give me... I've known him for 6 months by the grace of technology now I anticipate the mere feeling of being in the same room with him... he has become my light in the dark... as I build my artillery back up for the impending wars ahead... none of them really have much to do with him... those await my return from manhattan...
all things in art and business are streaming in... > I work too much - but it's necessary right now that I do so... I'm fighting well. My greatest fear is not knowing when to stop.
the 4th party was vunderbar... met up with a german teacher who had fantastic tales of Germany etc... then our house and the neighbors had a fireworks all out war... very cool night... very cool ppl. My Dad was in another parade today and he's more of a princess than I am.
I need some illuminating button moment...
Profile: Doc NYC... now here's a guy who I am bemused by. In two weeks time, I am to meet him finally while staying in Manhattan before my procedure... he's started his residency in NYc two weeks ago and is for the most part exhausted and entrenched... the general nature of a doctor is emotionally unattached... though I know I have some effect on him... some. I've had to build his trust and he has continually surprised me. Even going as far as calling the ICU directly with his prestige (and my consent) to find out more about my cousins desperate situation. I know this isn't the flu .. it's open heart, but hearing his calming voice with the innate facts validating the crucial circumstances I find a retreat from my selfish abuse of my own thoughts. He has worked very very hard to where he is and will only be happy working in this genre because it's who he is... I respect and honor that in anyone who values their life and profession...
I am unraveling him... happily - he's patiently pacing for my arrival... waiting for the trust to waver - I haven't seen Paul in a month...he's ancy for my time, but he knows it's not what it should be... and I haven't missed him -red flags have to be up by now... I can only go forward with what fate and good decisions give me... I've known him for 6 months by the grace of technology now I anticipate the mere feeling of being in the same room with him... he has become my light in the dark... as I build my artillery back up for the impending wars ahead... none of them really have much to do with him... those await my return from manhattan...
all things in art and business are streaming in... > I work too much - but it's necessary right now that I do so... I'm fighting well. My greatest fear is not knowing when to stop.
the 4th party was vunderbar... met up with a german teacher who had fantastic tales of Germany etc... then our house and the neighbors had a fireworks all out war... very cool night... very cool ppl. My Dad was in another parade today and he's more of a princess than I am.
I need some illuminating button moment...