shining through
Hurray - my cous is out of the red zone!
He'll remain in the hospital 10-14 days but wooooo hoooo... my fav. cous is going to be fine!
I surprised myself this morning ... just letting the tears flow... all the pent up worry and prayer> thinking of him in* surgery...
(something very odd happened when I had one of my own very critical surgeries 11 yrs ago on my ear... my cous. was undergoing his own open heart surgery simultaneously with me... but very far away from one another.. different states... my parents never told me because they didn't want me to worry about him at the time and save my energy for my own surgery. While I was coming out of recovery, I kept saying over and over again, "Danny (my cousin) will be ok.." My parents eventually heard me and could't believe their ears...haha i had ear surgery, but anyway I was chanting something I had no idea about and to this day my parents were floored
Seeing my family yesterday and his new wife in pure grief... his parents and his brother all letting their guard down... it was almost too much for me... I have never seen these people (my close family) drop their shield - EVER... I was... seeing their eyes for the first time and finally could feel their beings... not the usual party atmosphere at whatever celebration or party that bring family closer together... even ones right down the street from you... where you drink and laugh and tough love one another... nope, not this time.
So - that, the art openings (my smarting around the crowds... again more wheeling and dealing, securing a show for an artist I am rep. for, massive thunderstorms, modifying 3-d glasses for a young boy, knowing the indian project is taking flight... found family in more than one way, romance books about stolen art, talking to Jake, steve ont he front of the art NY Times... and if only gerard butler would slip into my dreams... sigh*
He'll remain in the hospital 10-14 days but wooooo hoooo... my fav. cous is going to be fine!
I surprised myself this morning ... just letting the tears flow... all the pent up worry and prayer> thinking of him in* surgery...
(something very odd happened when I had one of my own very critical surgeries 11 yrs ago on my ear... my cous. was undergoing his own open heart surgery simultaneously with me... but very far away from one another.. different states... my parents never told me because they didn't want me to worry about him at the time and save my energy for my own surgery. While I was coming out of recovery, I kept saying over and over again, "Danny (my cousin) will be ok.." My parents eventually heard me and could't believe their ears...haha i had ear surgery, but anyway I was chanting something I had no idea about and to this day my parents were floored
Seeing my family yesterday and his new wife in pure grief... his parents and his brother all letting their guard down... it was almost too much for me... I have never seen these people (my close family) drop their shield - EVER... I was... seeing their eyes for the first time and finally could feel their beings... not the usual party atmosphere at whatever celebration or party that bring family closer together... even ones right down the street from you... where you drink and laugh and tough love one another... nope, not this time.
So - that, the art openings (my smarting around the crowds... again more wheeling and dealing, securing a show for an artist I am rep. for, massive thunderstorms, modifying 3-d glasses for a young boy, knowing the indian project is taking flight... found family in more than one way, romance books about stolen art, talking to Jake, steve ont he front of the art NY Times... and if only gerard butler would slip into my dreams... sigh*