So it's been a while...
It's been a long while. I don't know why I'm updating now. I don't plan on starting to use my LJ on a regular basis or anything, it just felt time. So I figure, go with the flow right?
I've been really happy content lately. I've grown a lot. Unfortunately, in the process a lot of friends have been left behind. But they don't seem bothered by this so I've moved on. Everyone in the past is now in the past. Anyone who I haven't kept in contact with, I probably will no longer be in contact with. Even when I go back home. I don't think I belong in the group of friends anymore. And you know what, that's not necessarily a bad thing. I've learned a lot over the past few months while I was in Spain, home for the holidays and since I've arrived in Austria. I'm past a lot of things. I stopped cutting. I stopped drugs (even pot, yes). I don't drink very much anymore. I don't sleep days away. I even stopped ALL my meds. And you know what? I'm doing well. I've been traveling and painting and laughing genuinely and meeting new people and smiling for no reason and looking forward to each day. I've been taking life and all it has to offer me in with open arms. I'm doing really well. I feel like I can't bother to involve myself with people caught up in things I've moved passed. I'm not saying I'm above anyone or anything... I'm just passed it all.
I hope my old friends still know that I'm there for them if they need me. I wish them happiness and love in their lives. I hope that they're all doing well. I hope you're all doing well.
I've figured myself out. I know where I'm going and understand where I've been. I figured out what I want from life, from myself and from others. And I refuse to settle for less. I deserve better than that. And finally, I actually believe it. Not to say I'm done learning or growing in myself; I have so much more to come, I know it. It feels nice. Like a warm calm that covers you like a blanket and leaves a permanent smile on your face.
Life is looking good. Things are bright. And the things that aren't, well, are not important enough to dwell on. I'm looking forward to the next few months. Traveling around, meeting new people, new experiences. I'm looking forward to playing with the kids everyday and helping them grow in their English as well as in themselves. I hope I have a positive impact on their lives. I'm looking forward to learning how to horseback ride, skiing down the alps again, go mountain climbing, getting my moped lisense and swimming in the Adriatic sea.
My eyes are sparkling and my smiles are contagious. Nothing and no one can hold me down.
And since I've been living out of children's books over the past couple of months, I'll end this with a quote from one of the favourite children's authors...
“I have heard there are troubles of more than one kind. Some come from ahead and some come from behind. But I've bought a big bat. I'm all ready you see. Now my troubles are going to have troubles with me!”
- Dr. Seuss
Brittney xo
I've been really happy content lately. I've grown a lot. Unfortunately, in the process a lot of friends have been left behind. But they don't seem bothered by this so I've moved on. Everyone in the past is now in the past. Anyone who I haven't kept in contact with, I probably will no longer be in contact with. Even when I go back home. I don't think I belong in the group of friends anymore. And you know what, that's not necessarily a bad thing. I've learned a lot over the past few months while I was in Spain, home for the holidays and since I've arrived in Austria. I'm past a lot of things. I stopped cutting. I stopped drugs (even pot, yes). I don't drink very much anymore. I don't sleep days away. I even stopped ALL my meds. And you know what? I'm doing well. I've been traveling and painting and laughing genuinely and meeting new people and smiling for no reason and looking forward to each day. I've been taking life and all it has to offer me in with open arms. I'm doing really well. I feel like I can't bother to involve myself with people caught up in things I've moved passed. I'm not saying I'm above anyone or anything... I'm just passed it all.
I hope my old friends still know that I'm there for them if they need me. I wish them happiness and love in their lives. I hope that they're all doing well. I hope you're all doing well.
I've figured myself out. I know where I'm going and understand where I've been. I figured out what I want from life, from myself and from others. And I refuse to settle for less. I deserve better than that. And finally, I actually believe it. Not to say I'm done learning or growing in myself; I have so much more to come, I know it. It feels nice. Like a warm calm that covers you like a blanket and leaves a permanent smile on your face.
Life is looking good. Things are bright. And the things that aren't, well, are not important enough to dwell on. I'm looking forward to the next few months. Traveling around, meeting new people, new experiences. I'm looking forward to playing with the kids everyday and helping them grow in their English as well as in themselves. I hope I have a positive impact on their lives. I'm looking forward to learning how to horseback ride, skiing down the alps again, go mountain climbing, getting my moped lisense and swimming in the Adriatic sea.
My eyes are sparkling and my smiles are contagious. Nothing and no one can hold me down.
And since I've been living out of children's books over the past couple of months, I'll end this with a quote from one of the favourite children's authors...
“I have heard there are troubles of more than one kind. Some come from ahead and some come from behind. But I've bought a big bat. I'm all ready you see. Now my troubles are going to have troubles with me!”
- Dr. Seuss
Brittney xo