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So I was sitting here feeling sick about the whole situation, it hasnt quite hit me that its all real yet, but it will tomorrow.
I know Dave and I probably had one of the most messed up relationships 2 people could have. We used each other, we treated each other like shit, but in the end we were still friends. Through it all we could still talk like we never did anything bad to each other. A week ago we got in a fight and made up all within a 5 minute conversation, thats what we did, we fought, we made up, and just had this love/hate relationship. For a long time I was a complete bitch to him, but he never let it get to him, we still talked and were friends. Last week after we talked i felt like things were finally fine between us that the past was the past well some of it, a few things stuck with me, but now its over.
A part of me wishes I could go back to that conversation and tell him that things were okay with us, that I was sorry for what we had been through and what I had to tell him that day, but dont we all wish there was something we could have changed. I know I wasn't ever very close with him, but it still hits pretty hard. Everyone knew him and knew how he had an asshole personality, but we all knew there was a heart in there somewhere. It's weird to think about it, it makes me sick, I cant even imagine what he was really going through to come to this. We all wish we could have saved him, helped him, done anything to change what happened, but we can't. All I can say is that he will be missed by many. We all love you Dave and miss you more than you know.
R.I.P. David Monkress you're in a much better place now
I know Dave and I probably had one of the most messed up relationships 2 people could have. We used each other, we treated each other like shit, but in the end we were still friends. Through it all we could still talk like we never did anything bad to each other. A week ago we got in a fight and made up all within a 5 minute conversation, thats what we did, we fought, we made up, and just had this love/hate relationship. For a long time I was a complete bitch to him, but he never let it get to him, we still talked and were friends. Last week after we talked i felt like things were finally fine between us that the past was the past well some of it, a few things stuck with me, but now its over.
A part of me wishes I could go back to that conversation and tell him that things were okay with us, that I was sorry for what we had been through and what I had to tell him that day, but dont we all wish there was something we could have changed. I know I wasn't ever very close with him, but it still hits pretty hard. Everyone knew him and knew how he had an asshole personality, but we all knew there was a heart in there somewhere. It's weird to think about it, it makes me sick, I cant even imagine what he was really going through to come to this. We all wish we could have saved him, helped him, done anything to change what happened, but we can't. All I can say is that he will be missed by many. We all love you Dave and miss you more than you know.
R.I.P. David Monkress you're in a much better place now