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Well I never update anymore, I guess I just dont have the time nor do I make the time, plus I dont have anything of much interest to write about. My life has been consisting mainly of work and school, I'm beyond sick of it, but if I wasn't at work or school I would be doing nothing. I dont mind all the work I do, I like to keep busy, but every once in awhile it catches up with me and I feel like a need a break. Thankfully in 30 days I will be in CALIFORNIA which will be a very nice break from my busy schedule and the crappy weather.
I wish I could go to California and stay there, at least for longer than 6 days, I need to get away from Michigan, I just kind of need to get away from everything. Leaving people behind is hard I know and right now theres too much going on in my life to leave, but one day hopefully not too far away I will take myself to the west coast and stay there. I just want to try life somewhere else, somewhere out of michigan, out of the cold.
Okay other than wanting to run away to the coast, well I guess everything going on right now with friends, boys, and just life in general makes me want to run away.
I'm sick of boys, esp. him. Well I'm done with him I had made the decision that if he came home and didnt call me I was done...well he didnt call me therefore I'm not putting in the effort anymore. I havent talked to him in almost a month now, I hate it, but I dont feel like wasting my time going back and forth with him nemore. We did that for a year, a year of getting no where, a year I wasted my time thinking everything between us would get figured out only to be once again let down. In that year I possibly could have found a better boy and gotten that one off my mind, but he was always in the back of my head, everytime we hung out and went back to our ways. I see now though that hes not really the type of person I want to be with, hes awesome to hang out with, but relationship wise I dont think it would work out all too well, so maybe its better that things ended nwo and we can be friends rather then us getting into a relationship only for it to not work out and possibly ruin the friendship that we have. So for as much as I was bothered by it for quite some time, I've come to be somewhat okay with it, I know things will be okay. Although I feel I am destined to be single, maybe one of these days Ill actually meet a good guy that wont stop talking to me after a month, who knows, I just know that Ive been trying not to think about it so much, its always in the back of my mind and every once in awhile I think about it, but I've been doing okay letting things figure themselves out.
Okay now the friends thing, So I dont feel like I have that many anymore. I jsut need to go out and meet some new people get away from the people I used to hang out with because I realize alot of them are shady and only call me when they need something. Ive been trying to make an effort this semester to meet some people at school and I'm gonna stop blowing some people off and hang out with the people I havent relaly called in awhile, Ill put in some effort.
Well wasnt supposed to be this long and I actually have more I could say now that I'm thinking about it, but I need to get some sleep.
I wish I could go to California and stay there, at least for longer than 6 days, I need to get away from Michigan, I just kind of need to get away from everything. Leaving people behind is hard I know and right now theres too much going on in my life to leave, but one day hopefully not too far away I will take myself to the west coast and stay there. I just want to try life somewhere else, somewhere out of michigan, out of the cold.
Okay other than wanting to run away to the coast, well I guess everything going on right now with friends, boys, and just life in general makes me want to run away.
I'm sick of boys, esp. him. Well I'm done with him I had made the decision that if he came home and didnt call me I was done...well he didnt call me therefore I'm not putting in the effort anymore. I havent talked to him in almost a month now, I hate it, but I dont feel like wasting my time going back and forth with him nemore. We did that for a year, a year of getting no where, a year I wasted my time thinking everything between us would get figured out only to be once again let down. In that year I possibly could have found a better boy and gotten that one off my mind, but he was always in the back of my head, everytime we hung out and went back to our ways. I see now though that hes not really the type of person I want to be with, hes awesome to hang out with, but relationship wise I dont think it would work out all too well, so maybe its better that things ended nwo and we can be friends rather then us getting into a relationship only for it to not work out and possibly ruin the friendship that we have. So for as much as I was bothered by it for quite some time, I've come to be somewhat okay with it, I know things will be okay. Although I feel I am destined to be single, maybe one of these days Ill actually meet a good guy that wont stop talking to me after a month, who knows, I just know that Ive been trying not to think about it so much, its always in the back of my mind and every once in awhile I think about it, but I've been doing okay letting things figure themselves out.
Okay now the friends thing, So I dont feel like I have that many anymore. I jsut need to go out and meet some new people get away from the people I used to hang out with because I realize alot of them are shady and only call me when they need something. Ive been trying to make an effort this semester to meet some people at school and I'm gonna stop blowing some people off and hang out with the people I havent relaly called in awhile, Ill put in some effort.
Well wasnt supposed to be this long and I actually have more I could say now that I'm thinking about it, but I need to get some sleep.