I miss my best friend.
I feel like I don't have any real friends anymore.
I have people to talk to in my classes who I consider friends but I feel like I'm not their first choice.
Like Nik for example, We have four classes together and we talk and text and laugh together pretty much everyday but I feel like if given a choice to hang out with me or Briane...he would pick Briane.
I hate this feeling of being closer to someone than they feel to you...it hurts. He is pretty much the only friend I have at school but he has Briane and Raven. I thought Briane was my friend but she seems to not want anything to do with me anymore. I don't know what I did wrong. Is it because I don't smoke? I don't want to be that person anymore. Is it because I never have money? Is it because I'm not as open as everyone else? Am I just not fun? Is it because I'm just some lame, naive virgin? Are you just embarrassed to be seen with me? It makes me so insecure which doesn't help with any of my problems.
I'm always there for everybody else, but who's gonna be there for me? I used to have Skylar, but we never see each other anymore. Same with Christin, Tyler, and Sydnee. Sydnee will always be my best friend but she's busy with her own life with her boyfriend and another baby on the way.
I just feel so utterly alone.
I have people to talk to in my classes who I consider friends but I feel like I'm not their first choice.
Like Nik for example, We have four classes together and we talk and text and laugh together pretty much everyday but I feel like if given a choice to hang out with me or Briane...he would pick Briane.
I hate this feeling of being closer to someone than they feel to you...it hurts. He is pretty much the only friend I have at school but he has Briane and Raven. I thought Briane was my friend but she seems to not want anything to do with me anymore. I don't know what I did wrong. Is it because I don't smoke? I don't want to be that person anymore. Is it because I never have money? Is it because I'm not as open as everyone else? Am I just not fun? Is it because I'm just some lame, naive virgin? Are you just embarrassed to be seen with me? It makes me so insecure which doesn't help with any of my problems.
I'm always there for everybody else, but who's gonna be there for me? I used to have Skylar, but we never see each other anymore. Same with Christin, Tyler, and Sydnee. Sydnee will always be my best friend but she's busy with her own life with her boyfriend and another baby on the way.
I just feel so utterly alone.