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[lidee]

so, anyone who is actually really friends with me knows about all the crap that's gone on between jason and me for the last couple years.  ever since i broke up with him, he hasn't so much as IM'ed me without me IM'ing him first.  Anytime I put forth the effort to try to talk to him, I carry the conversation, anytime I try to hang out, he blows me off.  (He did come over once...when Duckie invited him.)  Tonight I told him that I'm tired of trying to maintain a friendship if he has no interest in putting forth any effort.  He actually responded to that.  And we're hanging out tomorrow night.  I can't tell you how relieved I am.  I'm crying like a little baby.  That's partially because I haven't gotten a real night's sleep in the last two weeks, but also because I was so scared that he wouldn't care.  And if he hadn't, I think my heart would have broken a little.  Or more than a little.  I've missed him so much, it's unreal.

for now, I'm going to bed.  I'm so tired that I'm completely useless.  I'll get up early and finish my homework after a few hours of sleep.  G'night all.