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i hate myself. i hate that i always feel guilty, i hate that i am depressed, i hate that my friends dont understand me, i hate that i cant keep a guy all b/c of my stupidity, but most of all i hate how i cant stand up for myself. i want to yell at everyone i want to let them know how i feel. how i feel when THEY stand me up, how i feel when THEY blow me off like i dont know anything or what is really going on, or when people try to spare my feelings, if you have an issue with me then tell but damn it dont talk behind my back. i hate it when someone knows how you feel about something/someone but doesnt take that into consideration. ever! maybe they think about it but it doesnt matter how you feel on how they feel. then they act like nothing is wrong and ask you to do something for them. there are people and i dont know if you know who you are or not but you have pissed me off and if only i could let you know how i feel maybe it would help, but no...i dont want to hurt your feelings i dont want to lose a crappy friend who doesnt care about my feelings.