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i'm wearing thin. ive been 2 steps from the edge for along time and for the first time i'm actually worried that i might get pulled in. maybe i am not what i thought i was. i swear, this is turning out to be one shit pile after another while i watch everything go right for everyone else. the more i want it the more it hates me. people keep telling me that i should just forget it. maybe i should listen. maybe i should just throw in the towel.