it's unforgiveable but i forgave you
i'm really sad.
basically because people just waste themselves.
went out with nicki and dan tonight.
it was good till we went to trevors
then everybody got high with their rere bong
its so depressing to watch people waste themselves like that
and i realized how much i love matt
and watching the osu game tonight reminded me of what could be
he doesnt do drugs or smoke. cept cigars on the 4th. but thats diff. and he rarely drinks. and he's always there for me and he can be horny with me but thats okay bc i like it hahaha.
so fuck other boys. fuck hanging out with other boys. fuck stoners. fuck alcoholics. because i dont want to have anything to do with you ever.
and i'm letting go of being upset with matt for what he's done..i finally forgive him. because i was a terrible person before with the other guy. and blah. and i'm letting go of the past, well the bad stuff that happened between us..because we've been so good lately. and monday should be superb =]
but i hate how he's always right..like he'll tell me not to go out n do soemthing or be with a guy and everytime its a fucked up situation and he's right. BLAHHHHHHHHHS.
im gonna go eat waffles with my grandma tomorrow morning. horray
i should have gone to chicago with my mommy to see my gma since shes in the hospital
god im a tard....
insane what love can do that keeps me coming back to you
yayy mattybear just called me =]