love
November 17, 2005 (midnight)
at the airport i saw the most adorable, beautiful, astounding person i've ever met in my life, so many thoughts were racing through my head... is he going to still like me after he sees me...is he going to change...he looks so hot...i was scared. he whispered in my ear: did my heart love till now forswear it, sight for i never saw true beauty till this night wow that just made me melt completely, and then he kissed me. my heart was beating so fast i was shaking i've never felt that way for someone before i never thought a kiss could taste so sweet so soft i couldn't look at him, all i did was look down i couldn't even talk he just literally took my breath away. in the car i was still nervous i didnt know if he was disappointed or not, my friend gave him the sandwich i made for him because he was always jokingly asking me to make him a sandwich. he rubbed my shoulder and held my hand thats when most of the insecurities i had disappeared, we dropped him off at his house...i didnt want to let go even though i was still a little nervous i didnt want to let go...i called him after i wasnt so nervous on the phone
November 18, 2005
i didn't go to school, fernando picked me up across the street, we kissed...it felt so magical. he opened the door for me, usually i dont like this, but i felt special when he did it. then we went to see his little cousin and grandmother, i loved seeing him play with his little cousin so childish, golden boy they call him because he is, hes so special, caring and loving. after we went to his mothers house where he gave me the ring that i only take off to go to sleep "you're my haven in life and death". we went to pick up his mother to go to lunch, then after we "watched" charlie and the chocolate factory and and and after we went to see HARRY POTTER!! he came down from virginia to watch harry potter with me i love him so much! and contrary to what someone says i didnt fall asleep watching the movie...baby do you want a fry?
November 19, 2005
he called me and told me to go outside, outside where? i opened my door and saw him standing in my hallway! we walked to some ecudorian place down the block i never knew exsisted, i was scared ofcourse because i was going to meet his dad, aunt and uncle. they ate i couldn't i was so nervous the whole time he was here i couldnt eat i had butterflies in my stomach, then we went to his uncles house dropped off his aunt and went to the store, fernando and i stayed in the car :x after we ate the barbecue mary called me and said she missed me and that we should hang out after homecoming, we went to Denny's it was packed and we ended up eating at cazolas and ofcourse ana the great thinker that she is (no sarcasm intended) decided to go to the beach. BEST moment ever! we got near the water and i saw a perfect oppertunity to throw the grouch in the water, the grouch that didnt want to take off his shoes or pants. i jumped on him and we both fell in the water and i the great spontaneous person that i am said lets take off our clothes and jump in the water! it'll be fun, so we did and it was fun...baby we'll always have the beach...soo it was getting early and fernando had to catch a plane so we went back home i was the first dropped off...worst moment in my life having to say goodbye to my baby, but see it isnt goodbye its see you later, it'll never be goodbye, i cried said goodbye hugged him and walked away i couldnt look back but i did i saw them drive away...i broke down i started crying even harder because i didnt know when the next time i would see him was gonna be, it felt unreal. after ten minutes i went home the next time i talked to fernando he was in virginia