i am the music nerd
wow. i'm def really tired right now.
practiced four hours today.
its been a loooong time since i've done that.
its nice...lol.
i need to do that more often so i can actually be good and not suck total ass at violin.
i'm gonna start failing school soon if i keep practicing, but i like violin better than school so i guess thats how its gonna be. and if i wanna take masterclasses from danchenko i gotta sound good. and then i can study w/ him at encore this summer. that would make me so incredibly happy.
wow.
so i was planning on having an audition on jan. 20 for aspen music festival, but i decided not to cuz the average age last year was 23. yah. kinda weird for me to go lol. but i have a competition on the 31 i think. and another one this month. both preliminary things. mr. cyncynates thinks i'll win. i don't. fellowship audition soon. omg i hope i get in. that would be so fucking cool. once a month (or more, i don't remember) i would go to the kennedy center and do stuff instead of going to school. i would have free lessons w/ my teacher AND 2 free tickets to NSO concerts. oh yah, and i would get to have long discussions in the green room w/ all of the soloists that came to play w/ the orchestra. how fucking awesome is that? theres so much more but i can't remember the rest lol.
ew i suck ass, and i'm tired of people telling me i'm good just to try and make me feel better cuz it only makes me feel worse ew. either they're a lot better than be and they say it out of pity, or they don't know shit and they shouldn't be "critiquing" me anyways. i need to get better. i need to be good.
i hate working. why do i have to be such a lazy ass?
--> edit EVERY1 HAS TO LOOK AT THESE PICTURES LOL:: some r me, alaura, tess, and lisa at pizza hut, then at the movie store finding nuns next to porno; then some r me, alaura, lisa, annie, and elaina at elaina's...watching movies? http://www.picturetrail.com/gallery/view?p=999&gid=6051874&uid=2990234
practiced four hours today.
its been a loooong time since i've done that.
its nice...lol.
i need to do that more often so i can actually be good and not suck total ass at violin.
i'm gonna start failing school soon if i keep practicing, but i like violin better than school so i guess thats how its gonna be. and if i wanna take masterclasses from danchenko i gotta sound good. and then i can study w/ him at encore this summer. that would make me so incredibly happy.
wow.
so i was planning on having an audition on jan. 20 for aspen music festival, but i decided not to cuz the average age last year was 23. yah. kinda weird for me to go lol. but i have a competition on the 31 i think. and another one this month. both preliminary things. mr. cyncynates thinks i'll win. i don't. fellowship audition soon. omg i hope i get in. that would be so fucking cool. once a month (or more, i don't remember) i would go to the kennedy center and do stuff instead of going to school. i would have free lessons w/ my teacher AND 2 free tickets to NSO concerts. oh yah, and i would get to have long discussions in the green room w/ all of the soloists that came to play w/ the orchestra. how fucking awesome is that? theres so much more but i can't remember the rest lol.
ew i suck ass, and i'm tired of people telling me i'm good just to try and make me feel better cuz it only makes me feel worse ew. either they're a lot better than be and they say it out of pity, or they don't know shit and they shouldn't be "critiquing" me anyways. i need to get better. i need to be good.
i hate working. why do i have to be such a lazy ass?
--> edit EVERY1 HAS TO LOOK AT THESE PICTURES LOL:: some r me, alaura, tess, and lisa at pizza hut, then at the movie store finding nuns next to porno; then some r me, alaura, lisa, annie, and elaina at elaina's...watching movies? http://www.picturetrail.com/gallery/view?p=999&gid=6051874&uid=2990234