id sure hate to break down here/ nothing up ahead/ or in the rearview mirror..

[lickbeforusniff]

so i didnt go to school today. i didnt feel like it. i walked up to jewel to get a card and stamps for my moms birthday. i saw kyle. i asked him to come over after work. i doubt he will. he really hates having me around. i think im going to do us both a favor and just leave. i need to get all my shit from his house and be done. i dont know.. its so hard to lose your best friend. and that is what he was. he has changed so much and im not sure if im ready to accept that. but im going to have to. we used to be so close. i used to be everything to him... and now im nothing. it breaks my heart to say it but it is the truth... i just wish there was one person out there that would love me and not leave me. im so sick of people coming into my life to just to leave me with a broken heart. i know time heals all wounds, but this one i think is unfixable.. or at least that is how i feel right now. i just want one good thing to look forward to. but even that is to much to ask. i need to get over this. i need to go forward without looking back.. i jsut wish i didnt have to do it all alone..

love+jess