bad day
maybe I would be coping better if
- my normal stomach cramps weren't ganging up with my period to make EPIC CRAMPS OF DOOM
- i hadn't eaten chips for lunch
- If I actually had a friendship "group" rather than just a million people who i sometimes hang out with, who never put each other first anymore, or maybe don't know each other, because if i want to go out for drinks on friday then the only person that i could be sure of arriving is my boyfriend
- and I'm sick of being the one chasing old friends up
- And i'm sick of being too busy to ever organise anything
- And i'm sick of being angry because when i try to organise things everyone else has other commitments
- wasn't university meant to be fun? not a horrible mix of too lonely/too social?
- i mean, i don't want to hang out with people and do nothing. Why would i want to do nothing? I do nothing about fifteen hours a night with my current health
- I'm so sick of being sick
-i'm sick of knowing that even if i wasn't anal about keeping up a routine, that i couldn't go out drinking, because it takes me about three days to get over drinking too much.
- i'm sick of worrying that i'm going to be lonely all summer.
- i'm sick of making the effort to get to know new people and then being completely underwhelmed
- i'm sick of being reliant on you
- my Theory essay is due on wednesday. My drawing folio is due on monday. my painting/prinmedia folio is due in two weeks. i . cant. do . this.
- ianto died
- i have drawing at NINE AM
- i can barely think through my stomach cramps and my headache and i just want to lie down and cry
- my normal stomach cramps weren't ganging up with my period to make EPIC CRAMPS OF DOOM
- i hadn't eaten chips for lunch
- If I actually had a friendship "group" rather than just a million people who i sometimes hang out with, who never put each other first anymore, or maybe don't know each other, because if i want to go out for drinks on friday then the only person that i could be sure of arriving is my boyfriend
- and I'm sick of being the one chasing old friends up
- And i'm sick of being too busy to ever organise anything
- And i'm sick of being angry because when i try to organise things everyone else has other commitments
- wasn't university meant to be fun? not a horrible mix of too lonely/too social?
- i mean, i don't want to hang out with people and do nothing. Why would i want to do nothing? I do nothing about fifteen hours a night with my current health
- I'm so sick of being sick
-i'm sick of knowing that even if i wasn't anal about keeping up a routine, that i couldn't go out drinking, because it takes me about three days to get over drinking too much.
- i'm sick of worrying that i'm going to be lonely all summer.
- i'm sick of making the effort to get to know new people and then being completely underwhelmed
- i'm sick of being reliant on you
- my Theory essay is due on wednesday. My drawing folio is due on monday. my painting/prinmedia folio is due in two weeks. i . cant. do . this.
- ianto died
- i have drawing at NINE AM
- i can barely think through my stomach cramps and my headache and i just want to lie down and cry