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OH GOD OH GOD OH GOD.
Honestly ... what do i do????
This is a chat on messenger me and chris have had today ...
Loki says:? (6:48:13 pm)
um... not sure how to word this, but becky has told me that before christmas you pretty much uninvited her to the rock night saying we needed time alone
Loki says:? (6:48:30 pm)
it really got to her, and now she doesn't know where she stands with you
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (6:49:38 pm)
what???????????????? oh my god when the FUCK did i say that?i seriously have no idea when i said that and if i did i am seriously disgusted with myself
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (6:49:58 pm)
jesus. i am a fucking bitch
Loki says:? (6:50:20 pm)
according to her, you may not have meant it badly, but that's the way she took it
Loki says:? (6:50:31 pm)
(p.s. you're not a bitch)
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (6:50:56 pm)
shiiiiiiiiit im sorry. p.s i am! i had NO right to say that, and i cant believe i did!!!!!!! OH GOD
Loki says:? (6:51:25 pm)
she also feels that since you and me have patched things up, you haven't bothered to text her back and she's feeling seriously ignored
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (6:53:01 pm)
oh god. cant believe ive been doing exactly what ive hated other people doing to me. fuck
Loki says:? (6:54:11 pm)
all she wants is a sincere apology and perhaps for you to start talking to her again - she's had more than her fair share of people turning their backs on her
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (6:55:28 pm)
and by all means she will get that believe me.
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (6:56:17 pm)
and she wouldnt get anything BUT a sincere apology
Loki says:? (6:57:22 pm)
unfortunately, it may now be too late. she just came in and read that you don't remember saying it
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (6:59:46 pm)
k
Loki says:? (7:00:12 pm)
i don't know what to do. i'm now stuck in the middle again.
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:03:09 pm)
im sorry for putting you in the middle chris, and im sorry i said that to her, and im sorry ive been an insensitive bitch, and im sorry thats its made you feel uncomfortable, and im sorry about not knowing how to go about telling her how so so sorry i am because i am royally, and seriously disgusted with myself
Loki says:? (7:04:34 pm)
i wish i knew how to fix it. there may still be a chance of you two being friends, but i doubt it will be anymore than just being okay with each other
Loki says:? (7:06:21 pm)
i just want everyone to get along, so please don't give up
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:08:55 pm)
oh for fuck sake chris have a little faith in me please. do you really honestly think im gonna just brush this off and say fuck to it? i dont do that and you should know that! im just gonna have to seriously think about how i can patch things up coz i cant believe ive done this!
Loki says:? (7:09:19 pm)
i know, i'm sorry
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:10:38 pm)
oh god
Loki says:? (7:11:26 pm)
i really wish i knew how to fix it all
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:12:41 pm)
well its not your problem is it!!!!!!!
Loki says:? (7:13:12 pm)
yes, i'm in the middle. the welfare of both sides is on my mind
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:17:27 pm)
im sorry chris. i didnt mean it, i just have no idea how to fix this. and im sorry i said that about us. at that point in time i was really confused about what was goin on ... and i messed up big style with one of the people i really never thought i would mess up with!
Loki says:? (7:17:59 pm)
it always happens when you least expect it
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:18:37 pm)
huh, yeah
Loki says:? (7:21:08 pm)
i'm sorry i had to bring this up honey
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:21:10 pm)
um, well ... im gonna go and bash my head against a few brick walls, and um ... decide how to try to fix this!
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:21:33 pm)
coz i have no fucking clue at the moment and i hate myself right now
Loki says:? (7:22:09 pm)
don't hate yourself
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:23:21 pm)
oh chris dont tell me not to coz i REALLY do. the fact that i cant remember saying it, the fact that i actually said it, and the fact that ive become a total and utter bitch to one of the only people who has been AMASING this lat year!\
Loki says:? (7:23:52 pm)
well i can help to try and patch things up
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:24:52 pm)
how?
Loki says:? (7:25:55 pm)
i can try to explain what was going on at the time, and the fact that you really don't recall why you said it - just a bit of smoothing
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:27:46 pm)
and thats just gonna feel like i am backing down from the situation and using you as a go between coz i cant deal with it myself
Loki says:? (7:28:16 pm)
then i shall swear of meddling and allow it thinmgs to go as they will
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:31:14 pm)
k. thing is i'd come up there now, but she has Linda and Anika around her and i couldn't handle it. i need to get her on her own, but she's probably going tomorrow
Loki says:? (7:31:50 pm)
yeah, i don't know when you can catch her
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:32:07 pm)
exactly my predicament
Loki says:? (7:32:15 pm)
they're all in the living room atm
Loki says:? (7:32:55 pm)
i don't know. i really don't.
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:34:59 pm)
well ... if you feel like you cant spend tomorrow night with me and the boys then i can completely understand
Loki says:? (7:35:47 pm)
yeah, i'll have to do some serious thinking about that... fuck.
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:37:17 pm)
im so sorry chris
Loki says:? (7:38:55 pm)
it's okay. i'm sure it'll be fine again
What do i do? If i text her ... it'll seem insensitive, equally so if i dont text her and do nothing ... and i cant go round coz of the girls ... and
OH GOD OH GOD OH GOD
Honestly ... what do i do????
This is a chat on messenger me and chris have had today ...
Loki says:? (6:48:13 pm)
um... not sure how to word this, but becky has told me that before christmas you pretty much uninvited her to the rock night saying we needed time alone
Loki says:? (6:48:30 pm)
it really got to her, and now she doesn't know where she stands with you
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (6:49:38 pm)
what???????????????? oh my god when the FUCK did i say that?i seriously have no idea when i said that and if i did i am seriously disgusted with myself
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (6:49:58 pm)
jesus. i am a fucking bitch
Loki says:? (6:50:20 pm)
according to her, you may not have meant it badly, but that's the way she took it
Loki says:? (6:50:31 pm)
(p.s. you're not a bitch)
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (6:50:56 pm)
shiiiiiiiiit im sorry. p.s i am! i had NO right to say that, and i cant believe i did!!!!!!! OH GOD
Loki says:? (6:51:25 pm)
she also feels that since you and me have patched things up, you haven't bothered to text her back and she's feeling seriously ignored
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (6:53:01 pm)
oh god. cant believe ive been doing exactly what ive hated other people doing to me. fuck
Loki says:? (6:54:11 pm)
all she wants is a sincere apology and perhaps for you to start talking to her again - she's had more than her fair share of people turning their backs on her
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (6:55:28 pm)
and by all means she will get that believe me.
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (6:56:17 pm)
and she wouldnt get anything BUT a sincere apology
Loki says:? (6:57:22 pm)
unfortunately, it may now be too late. she just came in and read that you don't remember saying it
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (6:59:46 pm)
k
Loki says:? (7:00:12 pm)
i don't know what to do. i'm now stuck in the middle again.
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:03:09 pm)
im sorry for putting you in the middle chris, and im sorry i said that to her, and im sorry ive been an insensitive bitch, and im sorry thats its made you feel uncomfortable, and im sorry about not knowing how to go about telling her how so so sorry i am because i am royally, and seriously disgusted with myself
Loki says:? (7:04:34 pm)
i wish i knew how to fix it. there may still be a chance of you two being friends, but i doubt it will be anymore than just being okay with each other
Loki says:? (7:06:21 pm)
i just want everyone to get along, so please don't give up
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:08:55 pm)
oh for fuck sake chris have a little faith in me please. do you really honestly think im gonna just brush this off and say fuck to it? i dont do that and you should know that! im just gonna have to seriously think about how i can patch things up coz i cant believe ive done this!
Loki says:? (7:09:19 pm)
i know, i'm sorry
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:10:38 pm)
oh god
Loki says:? (7:11:26 pm)
i really wish i knew how to fix it all
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:12:41 pm)
well its not your problem is it!!!!!!!
Loki says:? (7:13:12 pm)
yes, i'm in the middle. the welfare of both sides is on my mind
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:17:27 pm)
im sorry chris. i didnt mean it, i just have no idea how to fix this. and im sorry i said that about us. at that point in time i was really confused about what was goin on ... and i messed up big style with one of the people i really never thought i would mess up with!
Loki says:? (7:17:59 pm)
it always happens when you least expect it
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:18:37 pm)
huh, yeah
Loki says:? (7:21:08 pm)
i'm sorry i had to bring this up honey
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:21:10 pm)
um, well ... im gonna go and bash my head against a few brick walls, and um ... decide how to try to fix this!
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:21:33 pm)
coz i have no fucking clue at the moment and i hate myself right now
Loki says:? (7:22:09 pm)
don't hate yourself
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:23:21 pm)
oh chris dont tell me not to coz i REALLY do. the fact that i cant remember saying it, the fact that i actually said it, and the fact that ive become a total and utter bitch to one of the only people who has been AMASING this lat year!\
Loki says:? (7:23:52 pm)
well i can help to try and patch things up
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:24:52 pm)
how?
Loki says:? (7:25:55 pm)
i can try to explain what was going on at the time, and the fact that you really don't recall why you said it - just a bit of smoothing
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:27:46 pm)
and thats just gonna feel like i am backing down from the situation and using you as a go between coz i cant deal with it myself
Loki says:? (7:28:16 pm)
then i shall swear of meddling and allow it thinmgs to go as they will
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:31:14 pm)
k. thing is i'd come up there now, but she has Linda and Anika around her and i couldn't handle it. i need to get her on her own, but she's probably going tomorrow
Loki says:? (7:31:50 pm)
yeah, i don't know when you can catch her
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:32:07 pm)
exactly my predicament
Loki says:? (7:32:15 pm)
they're all in the living room atm
Loki says:? (7:32:55 pm)
i don't know. i really don't.
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:34:59 pm)
well ... if you feel like you cant spend tomorrow night with me and the boys then i can completely understand
Loki says:? (7:35:47 pm)
yeah, i'll have to do some serious thinking about that... fuck.
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed! says:? (7:37:17 pm)
im so sorry chris
Loki says:? (7:38:55 pm)
it's okay. i'm sure it'll be fine again
What do i do? If i text her ... it'll seem insensitive, equally so if i dont text her and do nothing ... and i cant go round coz of the girls ... and
OH GOD OH GOD OH GOD