well ...
Well, after muchos talking to both Liam and Chris today i feel a little bit better about myself than i did when i woke up this morning! although i am still a bit lost in my own head. how ever much i dont want to be, the voices are still gonna be there, and they arent gonna go ne where for a while, but still, they are talking a little less loudly now, which is always a good thing.
thing is...just really dont know whats up at the moment. everything i say seems to be getting sorted, or talked about, which is great, but ... i then sit down, and realise i am still not happy, but i just dont know why! its very very bizar and i dont like it much.
think it really freaked me out about how drunk i actually got lastnight, coz from what people have told me, i pretty much had no control in what i was doing. and in a way, i feel like im gonna get like that every time i go out at the moment.
My body is definately set to destroy, and ... nearly walking out infront of a car ... pretty much sums up that i want to destroy.
i just cant help myself when i drink. i drink to forget things ... and last night i managed it without a shadow of a doubt, and its really freaked me out!
Head fuck or what!
CRAP!
thing is...just really dont know whats up at the moment. everything i say seems to be getting sorted, or talked about, which is great, but ... i then sit down, and realise i am still not happy, but i just dont know why! its very very bizar and i dont like it much.
think it really freaked me out about how drunk i actually got lastnight, coz from what people have told me, i pretty much had no control in what i was doing. and in a way, i feel like im gonna get like that every time i go out at the moment.
My body is definately set to destroy, and ... nearly walking out infront of a car ... pretty much sums up that i want to destroy.
i just cant help myself when i drink. i drink to forget things ... and last night i managed it without a shadow of a doubt, and its really freaked me out!
Head fuck or what!
CRAP!