Poorly
Well it started off as a little cough, then into sneezing fits and cough, then sore throat and sneezing fits and cough, and now its headache from hell and sore throat and sneezing fits and cough. my head is pounding about 100 beats a minute and i need to do so much work.
I am so sleepy and i have a crit tomorrow and i am crapping myself about it, i really am.
My bro has just told me dad has said to him that if he doesnt get a 2:1 at the end of his Psychology degree he will be well angry!!! hummmm ... he hasnt said ne thing like that to me, it could either mean he knows im not very clever, or he has already given up on me getting a good degree!! eek on both counts there me thinks!
on a lighter note ... things are finally sorted, i think, with Chris and Me. we have finally decided to "just be friends", and nothing else ... not even when we get drunk!
there's still a bit of weird almost flirty banter, but i guess thats gonna happen for a bit, while we get used to things!
Loki says:i know we end up in the same predicament, and we shouldn't. we have become safety nets again, because we made cock-ups over christmas
In crimson I begin to drown says:and we cant keep leaning on eachother just because we made those cock-ups, but ... i cant help myself!!!!
Loki says:neither can i, but we need to get some strength back
In crimson I begin to drown says:part of me wants to and the other part of me really doesnt. and my head seems to want to listen to them both at the same time so i can't concentrate!
Loki says:i know. but we have been together before, and it doesn't work, and i feel like we're fooling ourselves at the moment
In crimson I begin to drown says:we are. we're living in a fantasy world, and the fantasy is better than reality
Loki says:i know
In crimson I begin to drown says:but we need to bring ourselves back to reality, coz the fantasy is soon gonna turn into a nightmare and i dont think we could cope!!!
Loki says:i certainly couldn't, i know my happiness is only temporary
In crimson I begin to drown says:i know, and we both know that i can go up and down so easily. my happiness and sanity is a yo-yo!!!
Loki says:just like mine.
Loki says:lets be fair, we need to end this for our own sakes
In crimson I begin to drown says:i know we do
so there we go, not sure if chris really wants this posted on the net, but every one pretty much knows whats been goin on ne ways!
so now i find myself all alone AGAIN. it sucks big style!
right, enough on the feeling sorry for myself thing.
am gonna make food!
I am so sleepy and i have a crit tomorrow and i am crapping myself about it, i really am.
My bro has just told me dad has said to him that if he doesnt get a 2:1 at the end of his Psychology degree he will be well angry!!! hummmm ... he hasnt said ne thing like that to me, it could either mean he knows im not very clever, or he has already given up on me getting a good degree!! eek on both counts there me thinks!
on a lighter note ... things are finally sorted, i think, with Chris and Me. we have finally decided to "just be friends", and nothing else ... not even when we get drunk!
there's still a bit of weird almost flirty banter, but i guess thats gonna happen for a bit, while we get used to things!
Loki says:i know we end up in the same predicament, and we shouldn't. we have become safety nets again, because we made cock-ups over christmas
In crimson I begin to drown says:and we cant keep leaning on eachother just because we made those cock-ups, but ... i cant help myself!!!!
Loki says:neither can i, but we need to get some strength back
In crimson I begin to drown says:part of me wants to and the other part of me really doesnt. and my head seems to want to listen to them both at the same time so i can't concentrate!
Loki says:i know. but we have been together before, and it doesn't work, and i feel like we're fooling ourselves at the moment
In crimson I begin to drown says:we are. we're living in a fantasy world, and the fantasy is better than reality
Loki says:i know
In crimson I begin to drown says:but we need to bring ourselves back to reality, coz the fantasy is soon gonna turn into a nightmare and i dont think we could cope!!!
Loki says:i certainly couldn't, i know my happiness is only temporary
In crimson I begin to drown says:i know, and we both know that i can go up and down so easily. my happiness and sanity is a yo-yo!!!
Loki says:just like mine.
Loki says:lets be fair, we need to end this for our own sakes
In crimson I begin to drown says:i know we do
so there we go, not sure if chris really wants this posted on the net, but every one pretty much knows whats been goin on ne ways!
so now i find myself all alone AGAIN. it sucks big style!
right, enough on the feeling sorry for myself thing.
am gonna make food!