19 years of life and all I've got to show for it is bitterness.
So here are some stray thoughts that absolutely piss me off.
Feminist rant:
First off, I hate that everything I'm about to say will make me sound like an angry, bra burning lesbian.
And so..on that note. I hate society. I loathe fucking society. I've come to realize that I am a product of everything I was rewarded for, everything I was taught, when I was growing up..and hell, to this fucking day. Success and intelligence matter, but only to a tiny degree. I hate that everything is appearance based for women, especially young women. If you are an old bag with nothing to show for your age, you are automatically the old woman with cats, or a complete fucking loser in the 'eyes of society'. But 'society', doesnt encourage success. How do you end up at that finish point, with that incredible career, if you were never encouraged to work for it when you were younger? I know so many people (men and women, I should mention..) who are in thousands of dollars worth of debt to keep up with appearances. That's all I ever -hear- about anymore, and it's insane. I hate that because I don't go tanning, have blonde hair, and worship paris hilton (like I used to) that there is something wrong. Granted to be there, and to where I am now, is a drastic change, but why isn't it encouraged that I finally stopped giving a shit? I hate that the sense of humor I have would be perfectly acceptable if I were a guy, but because I'm female, it's weird to say the shit I do. Dont swear too much, youre a girl. Dont shoot -too- high, youre female.
I'm sick of the fact that I cannot have a male friend without them expecting something in return. "Sure, I talked to you about life and thoughts and...what the fuck ever. But can't I get a blow job? Kind of like a consolation prize?" I'm very blunt, and it throws people off. But I've found that it's a lot easier to be honest with a guy, right off the bat, for that reason. If they know there's no possibility of anything sexual happening, maybe they won't even try. Wishful thinking.
I hate the fact that, at the end of the day. Im still a girl. Youre never -really- equal. I will never be as smart or funny as the guys. I will never be viewed as 'one of the guys' because I have tits, and it's disgusting that that's the reality.
I hate that because I CHOOSE to be single, I'm asked about it everytime the subject gets brought up. "You dont have a boyfriend, why not. No seriously. Why?" Because I don't want to go through the fucking stress of dealing with someone elses problems. I've got my own, I'm good. It's not worth it just so I can have someone to cuddle with at the end of the day.
Done. and done. For now.
Feminist rant:
First off, I hate that everything I'm about to say will make me sound like an angry, bra burning lesbian.
And so..on that note. I hate society. I loathe fucking society. I've come to realize that I am a product of everything I was rewarded for, everything I was taught, when I was growing up..and hell, to this fucking day. Success and intelligence matter, but only to a tiny degree. I hate that everything is appearance based for women, especially young women. If you are an old bag with nothing to show for your age, you are automatically the old woman with cats, or a complete fucking loser in the 'eyes of society'. But 'society', doesnt encourage success. How do you end up at that finish point, with that incredible career, if you were never encouraged to work for it when you were younger? I know so many people (men and women, I should mention..) who are in thousands of dollars worth of debt to keep up with appearances. That's all I ever -hear- about anymore, and it's insane. I hate that because I don't go tanning, have blonde hair, and worship paris hilton (like I used to) that there is something wrong. Granted to be there, and to where I am now, is a drastic change, but why isn't it encouraged that I finally stopped giving a shit? I hate that the sense of humor I have would be perfectly acceptable if I were a guy, but because I'm female, it's weird to say the shit I do. Dont swear too much, youre a girl. Dont shoot -too- high, youre female.
I'm sick of the fact that I cannot have a male friend without them expecting something in return. "Sure, I talked to you about life and thoughts and...what the fuck ever. But can't I get a blow job? Kind of like a consolation prize?" I'm very blunt, and it throws people off. But I've found that it's a lot easier to be honest with a guy, right off the bat, for that reason. If they know there's no possibility of anything sexual happening, maybe they won't even try. Wishful thinking.
I hate the fact that, at the end of the day. Im still a girl. Youre never -really- equal. I will never be as smart or funny as the guys. I will never be viewed as 'one of the guys' because I have tits, and it's disgusting that that's the reality.
I hate that because I CHOOSE to be single, I'm asked about it everytime the subject gets brought up. "You dont have a boyfriend, why not. No seriously. Why?" Because I don't want to go through the fucking stress of dealing with someone elses problems. I've got my own, I'm good. It's not worth it just so I can have someone to cuddle with at the end of the day.
Done. and done. For now.