a recap of the last few days
wow - the last few days have been better than I expected! I've spent a lot of time being kinda social which has felt surprisingly good. For a few days, I just wanted to crawl in my hole and hide (and did that), but I forced myself out for the holiday. Thanks so much to all the peeps who knew exactly what I needed. It was great hanging out with some people I hadn't been around in a while. I genuinely felt relaxed most of the time and had some fun. I managed to survive my triple-shift with my sanity intact (mostly lol). It was busier than I expected, and I'm sure it annoyed everyone around me :) sorry for that.
Today I watched the Illini game - seriously, could there BE any more unsportsmanship-like conduct penalties?? geesh! I didn't expect us to win - but we could have made a better showing! hooray for watching it on the HD big screen though!
I've had to endure some tough conversations in the past few days with my family (primarily my brother) about what might happen with Kaiden. My brain works in such a way that I need to fully think through all of the possible outcomes - both good and bad - so I feel prepared (and i'm armed with all the internet research I can do). I've stayed shockingly rational (for me) and made some plans because when the time comes, I don't know that I will be able to do that. I'll keep everyone updated as I know more. Just please be patient with me if I am flaky, sullen, or just generally acting strangely in the next 2 weeks. I also realized today that Jan 21 (the anniversary of my dad's death) is fast approaching. I kinda thought this would be the year that I'd be ok - because I never did get the bah-humbugs at Christmas. But, now yet another Christmas is associated with something traumatic, which makes Jan 21 even harder. I'm hanging in there (mostly) so far...
Can't wait to see the new Batman movie! Christian Bale + Heath Ledger = pure genius. The trailer I saw was kinda lame, but set the dark tone for the new movie and got me pumped!
And because we all know how I can't let things go (this is all in fun, I swear!!) ;) According to dictionary.com:
lit·tle
/ˈlɪt
l/ [lit-l] adjective, lit·tler or less or less·er, lit·tlest or least, adverb, less, least, noun
It IS a word!!!!!!!!!!! :) I took a poll and 3 of my 4 Paris friends surveyed say it's a word they've used forever, so it's apparently part of the vernacular of paris - so I feel pretty dumb for using it so frequently lol. I have to admit, it's only *kind of* a word - it has no definition of its own, and is not accepted by the Scrabble society! :) I feel so silly for using this word now (b/c everyone made fun of me! but i'm a good sport, I can take it lol), I feel like I oughta start sayin' "warsh my hands" or something lol. and what's realllllly funny is I had been in Paris that day! I don't know how or why, but my brain inevitably slips into Paris-ese whenever I've been home for more than a couple of hours! :) Some of my friends can spot it a mile away and sometimes say "you've been to Paris today, haven't you"? LOL!!
Anyway, that's the lastest on me the past few days. It's Tuesday so I'm off to watch my Spader (Boston Legal). Oh how i've missed my Spader! Happy New Year's everyone!!
Today I watched the Illini game - seriously, could there BE any more unsportsmanship-like conduct penalties?? geesh! I didn't expect us to win - but we could have made a better showing! hooray for watching it on the HD big screen though!
I've had to endure some tough conversations in the past few days with my family (primarily my brother) about what might happen with Kaiden. My brain works in such a way that I need to fully think through all of the possible outcomes - both good and bad - so I feel prepared (and i'm armed with all the internet research I can do). I've stayed shockingly rational (for me) and made some plans because when the time comes, I don't know that I will be able to do that. I'll keep everyone updated as I know more. Just please be patient with me if I am flaky, sullen, or just generally acting strangely in the next 2 weeks. I also realized today that Jan 21 (the anniversary of my dad's death) is fast approaching. I kinda thought this would be the year that I'd be ok - because I never did get the bah-humbugs at Christmas. But, now yet another Christmas is associated with something traumatic, which makes Jan 21 even harder. I'm hanging in there (mostly) so far...
Can't wait to see the new Batman movie! Christian Bale + Heath Ledger = pure genius. The trailer I saw was kinda lame, but set the dark tone for the new movie and got me pumped!
And because we all know how I can't let things go (this is all in fun, I swear!!) ;) According to dictionary.com:
lit·tle
/ˈlɪt
l/ [lit-l] adjective, lit·tler or less or less·er, lit·tlest or least, adverb, less, least, noun
It IS a word!!!!!!!!!!! :) I took a poll and 3 of my 4 Paris friends surveyed say it's a word they've used forever, so it's apparently part of the vernacular of paris - so I feel pretty dumb for using it so frequently lol. I have to admit, it's only *kind of* a word - it has no definition of its own, and is not accepted by the Scrabble society! :) I feel so silly for using this word now (b/c everyone made fun of me! but i'm a good sport, I can take it lol), I feel like I oughta start sayin' "warsh my hands" or something lol. and what's realllllly funny is I had been in Paris that day! I don't know how or why, but my brain inevitably slips into Paris-ese whenever I've been home for more than a couple of hours! :) Some of my friends can spot it a mile away and sometimes say "you've been to Paris today, haven't you"? LOL!!
Anyway, that's the lastest on me the past few days. It's Tuesday so I'm off to watch my Spader (Boston Legal). Oh how i've missed my Spader! Happy New Year's everyone!!