reflecting
I so often am filled with the frustration and resentment of what my life isn't and what I don't have. So it almost takes my breath away when these beautiful moments strike me where I feel like the luckiest girl in the world. A simple reminder of what I do have in life, of just how lucky I am, and I savor it. It puts into perspective how rich my life really is, despite how poor I am, and I owe it all to Chase. When he was first born, I was weighed down emotionally with the responsibility of shaping his life, I was so fearful that I would mess it up. And now I can see his personality solidifying, while still shaping who he'll become. Every night we reflect on the day behind us, and the day before us, and our favorite moment of the day. It is in these quiet moments that my heart swells and is touched by how lucky I am to have been given this gift I thought I'd never have, and I wonder if anyone else has experienced this feeling of what I can only describe as true love and pure joy.