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so...i don't do drugs. i rarely drink. i don't smoke. i try not to swear in front of small children. i try to be a good person. i don't understand why i feel guilty about loving celebrities. i think that my celebrity obsessions are my own personal drug. i feel this immense high during my star-gazing and a huge need to do more when i'm not watching the stars. my current star-gazing is directed towards one particular person who makes me feel even worse about my drug-induced ways. i watched the teen choice awards tonight just so that i could see him. that makes me feel dirty. all the girls that were screaming for him (and let me tell you, he got the most screams of anyone) were twelve years old (or younger). i know that there have to be other older fans of this adorable singing, dancing piece of heaven. i just wish they would start a 12-step program that i could join so i didn't feel so alone or so stupid. i hope i can wean myself off of this particular drug very soon, because i'm making myself sick, but i don't even care. i'm addicted. seriously, hard-core, addicted. i should join lindsay in rehab.