can't shake this feelin'

[libragrl1685]

I'm going home this weekend most likely...and i really don't want to....i hate this....i really don't wanna go home because it reminds me of so many things i just wanted to leave behind....i wanna have brand new start and not have to worry about anything..im sick of hiding who i really am and having fun....but i can't help it...and when people visit or i go home its like i have to hide again...and i don't want to anymore....I don't feel like doing anything anymore...I'm getting really depressed and i hate it...this isn't supposed to be like this.....i just wish i could be happy for no apparent reason like so many other people can....but again i get upset about everything at home....and voicemails from people practically in tears doesn't help i know u guys miss me...i miss u too but i can't talk right now.....it hurts too much to think about it....
and kory's been upset too so it hasn't really been that fun anymore here...i've been trying everything to see him be happy ....it sucks the only person u really connect with and want to hang out with doesn't wanna be here....i hope he goes home and comes back happy again....I think kor and danielles friends are coming tonite too so its prob gonna be a lonely laundry nite....maybe ill go some hw too...well gtg kids