(no subject)
wow...its been a long time since i've updated...the past couple of weeks have been hectic...football season was a lot of fun...im proud of our bobcat boys...i think i had about the most horrible day yesterday...i went out to go see my dad...i was doin really good...and then i dunno what happened i just let everything go....and i think thats what my problem is....i hold everything in because i want people to think everything is okay...but it really isnt..but yeah...after that i went to cheerleading...and i hurt my back....its been hurt for about a year now...but its hurting me worse...and nothing is helping...i couldnt even lift yesterday...then when i got home i got into the worst fight with johnny...i dont know how i feel about that..i dont really know how i feel about anything...i havent been myself lately..and i really wish i could get back to me...but something is holding me back.my family is in a dilemma right now...i hate it when we're like this....its almost as if we're divided...my grandpa is really sick and in the hospital..i dont think my mom wanted me to know...but she left a note out about it and i read it soo i know now...Im really sleepy....partly cuz i dont get enough sleep...but thats all i wanna do...i actually caught up on my sleep and im twice as tired...i cant wait for this day to be over....actually i cant wait til thanksgiving...only 2 more days left of school til break..gah...school is horrible too...i think your junior year you are at a risk of being depressed...cuz i know a lot of people are...and i know i think i am..its just crazy...and there's a lot that you have to do your junior year..i just cant wait to get out of this place...i just dont wanna leave my mom...but i know she would want it...the moms is doing a lot better than the last time that i wrote in here...coco's still a cutie!haha...im supposed to be workin on a computer right now but i finished my work so i just wanna sleep...actually i wanna just go find my chemistry cuz i have no idea where it is...but yeah anyways...cheerleading is beginning to scare me....nationals is about 39 days away....roughly....and we still dont have a dance....and we just now had to recruit someone else cuz someone failed..so yeah its great...and i dont think we're gonna be ready...but thats fine i guess..this will prolly be our last year to go to nationals...and prolly our last year of being good....i know some people are proud to have us as cheerleaders....but next year i do beleive people will be saying we suck...and it'll prolly be true.so yeah...i dont think i have anything else to say...i think i've said enough...so i'll just get back to class cuz i gots nothing better to do..i'll update later...bye kids!