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well today turned out to be a lil bit better than expected...im still worried about my mom..shes been comin home early from work like everyday....i pray that she doesnt have a heart attack or something...my mom is like my best friend and i dont know what i would do if i lost her too...i dont even wanna think like that..but its rough...its in Gods hands and theres nothing i can do but wait on it...its been pretty rough for me lately...i dont think people understand that they're not the only ones going through hard times...im pretty sick of it...i dont exactly know what to say anymore...what i wanna talk about i cant...i guess i can a lil...i got back one of the people that i lost...i dont know about the other one...i think they're still pretty pissed off at me...and i don tknow if things are ever goin to be the same...which sucks..but its my fault...like it always is...but i guess you live and learn...i think im gonna go in and talk to my counselor tomorrow...i seriously think im gonna graduate early...i feel like there's nothing here in san angelo for me...dont really feel wanted here....seems like everytime i turn around crap is being talked about me..and these people dont even know me...i dunno tho...my senior year would pretty much be gay cuz we would have to wear gay uniforms and they're takin away homecoming...seems like right before i get there everything changes...and for one im not about to wear no uniforms...especially in a public school...thats freakin retarded...they've taken enough away from us...and im sick of it...school's supposed to be fun...and thats overrated...school is just gay...and i hate it..so i wanna get out now before i end up goin crazy...anyways...im gone...gotta read some 40 pages in a book...so im out..got a lot to think about