Adventure with the stupid girl
Why do I have to be so nice? I wish I could be more like everyone else and just cut the bad, annoying, self-centered, advantage taking, so called "friends or aquatints" from my life. I'm so sick of being walked all over and being put down by people I truely don't care a lot about.
I've been walked over all my life and right before I moved to St. Joe, someone I worked with said to me "start sticking up for yourself and try not to let people walk all over you" it's great advice and when I lived in Rolla I started to get a little better, but you could tell that I pretty much had no spine...but now that I live in St. Joe, I've gotten a lot better, but I have a few people in my life that I really wish were gone from it. I wish these people the best in life, but I don't want them in my life, but yet I can't tell them that I no longer want to talk to them. Why can't I just say to them that they make me upset, they belittle me, they make me feel bad for being myself???? I'm too nice, and that's apparent. I won't talk to these people for a long time then suddenly, somehow, they reappear. It's just really annoying to me.
For instance, lastnight a "friend or something" asked me to go out and eat with her, I really didn't want to go, but I couldn't just say that I didn't feel like doing anything, so I thought to myself that it wouldn't be that bad and I wouldn't be out for too long. So we go to Carlos O'Kellys and none of the mexican food looked good, it all had the stuff I don't eat on it, so I decide just to get chicken tenders, well apparently this was something horrible of me to order (according to the girl I was there with) but whatever. Our food finally came and she kept making fun of the waiter, which I don't understand why because he was really nice, and did everything right, but I continued to just sit there and eat. She ate like half her food and decided that we needed to leave, I was like but I'm not done eating so can we stay for just a little longer and she said no, it looks like you ate enough, let's get out of here. I was so annoyed...if I had driven there then I would have just stayed and finished alone, I'd rather be by myself than around her anyway, but I didn't so I had to listen to her or she would've just left me. So we pay and leave, but before we did leave she had to insult me because I only left a 1.50 tip, they might be rude, but it's my money, my business, and she has no idea what my finances are like, but I ended up leaving a 4.00 tip because she said I was really rude. This wasn't even a nice resturant...it made me mad. Then afterwards she made me go to Best Buy with her, which was worse yet, she asked so many questions, made all the employees mad because of her mouth...uhhh she's so rude. Then we went to Target, same thing happened all over again. I was so upset, I went to Starbucks while she checked out just because I didn't want to be around her.
After that I thought that she was going to take me back to my car, which was on campus because when she called I was doing some homework there, but no, she decided that she needed to take me to "the bad parts of town" where people are always getting shot, mugged, raped, and theft occurs. Seriously who does that??? She purposely wanted me to get scared...well it worked because I was terrified! We went to this spot still in the "bad part of town" where you can get out of your car and look at the overview of the city...it's pretty but a lot of crimes happen there. When we left we were getting followed, we went to Crug park where they have Christmas lights and scenery set up and in the park they have a buffalo, elk, bore and other animals that you can look at that you don't see everyday...it's a pretty neat place, but it was shut down because they weren't done setting up the Christmas decorations...anyway we were still being followed. The girl I was with decided to try and lose them...I seriously thought that I was going to die, she was driving really stupidly. Well we lost them and I was getting really fed up with this girl, none of this would've happened if I hadn't answered my phone or just been honest and tell her that I didn't want to go...I just couldn't do it, I seriously think I'm too nice for my own good. Anyway, after we lose that person and get back into the good side of town, I thought that I could finally go home, but no we stopped at Hastings, we were there for quite some time, then finally she took me to my car. As I was about to get out she said "don't forget your Starbucks cup" that just made me even more upset...I wasn't going to forget to take the cup out of her car...I have more manners than that...but when she told me that I wanted to blow up at her, you would think that leaving a cup in there after everything she put me through that night wouldn't be a big deal, but apparently it's a huge deal.
I'm aggravated at her, myself, and the whole situation. Before I left she asked me to go to her 21st birthday party and I said that I might go, I know I'll probably end up going just because I can't just cut her or anybody I no longer want to talk to out of my life. Her birthday isn't even for a while now, so maybe she'll just forget about me. She even told me that she couldn't find anybody else to hang out with that night so that was the reason she invited me...so why am I still talking to her? Probably because she is friends with a few of my friends and it's just hard to avoid her. Out of respect I had invited her since I had invited my whole group at the time (we worked together in Jamie's group) to go out for my birthday and she said she would go, but never showed up...being stood up is the worst thing in the world...at least some people showed up, but in a way I'm glad she didn't. She has even said mean things about Keri, this girl is so mean and rude. And you know what? I feel like a horrible person for thinking that way and even worse that I even wrote about her....oh well I can't keep all my frustrations inside.