A Twist in Time
One of the most over used sayings I've heard is "Time heals everything". I don't think that's true. It started 2 years ago, I started something with a great, sweet, funny, intellectual guy and a couple weeks ago I had to break it off because all of my friends thought that he wasn't good for me. One told me that he put me through self-abuse because I was doing almost anything to make him happy, another told me that I was changing who I was just for him. It was all true. Then about a week after that he asked if it was over and I didn't really know what to say. We tried to be friends but it got to be too much for me. I couldn't do it because the feelings I have for him made it hard. I wanted to do so much with him and being friends with him just made it harder. After a good bit of thought I had to tell him that because of my own feelngs and issues I couldn't even be friends with him. He didn't say anything....just okay. It kind of hurt that it didn't seem to phase him. I wanted him to fight for me but who was I kidding? why would he fight for me? He didn't love me I don't think. I don't know. I've lost him and I lost a man that I respected in my church. Warren was a grat man and he is really missed. It was such a surreal feeling. I felt like any minute someone was gonna call me and tell me he was alive. I'm having a lot of emotional problems and it's just hard. I need help.