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i got my birth certificate yesterday! yay! i also got my mail-in ballot, which i'm exceedingly excited about, because that means that i can for-sure vote even though i won't be in town on voting day. exciting! voting is the most important thing that you can do as an american. period. there's nothing that gets me more excited than voting - it's my contribution to america.
yesterday, my dad and i got into a ginormous fight. and that sucked. he made me cry and reminded me all over again why i don't work for him. sadly, i have to go and work for him again. (this is business-dad, not dad-dad, whom i'm still fine with). i just hate that he has no realization of who i am. see, i used to be this total hard-a** about everything, and that's how he still treats me. but i had to be that way in order to survive because i was dealing with so much. now, i'm not. and i'm this really sensitive person (my mom told me i was a 'sensitive lamb' yesterday). and he's still treating me like i can handle that, and i can't. and truthfully, i couldn't handle it back in the day either. i just dealt with it because i was so shut off i couldn't feel anything anyway. so, i've changed and become a better person - and he's still got me pidgeon holed as the lost, lonely, confused, angry and hateful little girl i once was.
so, today, i'm hoping to get some stuff into storage, and really start taking apart my room. tonight is my bachelorette party, and we're going to go to the state fair. i'm pretty excited about that - it was that or go rock climbing, which i would have L-O-V-E-D LOVED!, but there aren't enough of us for everyone to have a belayer. so, it wouldn't have been as much fun.
we finished up our pre-marital counselling last night. it was good. really and truly.
i think we've found our song to walk away to - and that's john mayer's 'your body is a wonderland' and i think i'm going to walk down to 'green eyes' by coldplay. and i'm still not sure what to have the girls walk to.
okay, i think that's all. i'll write more later, i'm sure.
yesterday, my dad and i got into a ginormous fight. and that sucked. he made me cry and reminded me all over again why i don't work for him. sadly, i have to go and work for him again. (this is business-dad, not dad-dad, whom i'm still fine with). i just hate that he has no realization of who i am. see, i used to be this total hard-a** about everything, and that's how he still treats me. but i had to be that way in order to survive because i was dealing with so much. now, i'm not. and i'm this really sensitive person (my mom told me i was a 'sensitive lamb' yesterday). and he's still treating me like i can handle that, and i can't. and truthfully, i couldn't handle it back in the day either. i just dealt with it because i was so shut off i couldn't feel anything anyway. so, i've changed and become a better person - and he's still got me pidgeon holed as the lost, lonely, confused, angry and hateful little girl i once was.
so, today, i'm hoping to get some stuff into storage, and really start taking apart my room. tonight is my bachelorette party, and we're going to go to the state fair. i'm pretty excited about that - it was that or go rock climbing, which i would have L-O-V-E-D LOVED!, but there aren't enough of us for everyone to have a belayer. so, it wouldn't have been as much fun.
we finished up our pre-marital counselling last night. it was good. really and truly.
i think we've found our song to walk away to - and that's john mayer's 'your body is a wonderland' and i think i'm going to walk down to 'green eyes' by coldplay. and i'm still not sure what to have the girls walk to.
okay, i think that's all. i'll write more later, i'm sure.