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i am reminded, often and painfully, of the exact reason that i no longer work for my father. HE fails to show up to the meetings that HE sets up with me. and then, HE accuses me of creating obstacles. okay. so, i don't work for him anymore - i am doing these things to help him out. and yet, time after time he is degrading, rude, mean, difficult, and just hard to deal with. it's so hard. and it just tears me down. i want to cry after i'm done talking to him. HE is the one who dropped the ball, not me. it's just hard and frustrating - because i want to make him happy, and i want to be making the extra money working for him - but he really crushes my spirit. and often. :'(