keep reaching out to others
so i've been in a funk lately. but really, im sick of it. it's six in the morning and i'm wide awake. i've gotten in these cycles of intensely missing people, lots of people. and i'm realizing that i have a lot to say to a lot of people. but i've been sitting stagnant these past few weeks, worrying. and i'm done with it.
to explain the title if you didn’t guess it:
“If you have been rejected many times in your life, then one more rejection isn't going to make a difference. If you are rejected, don't automatically assume it's your fault. The other person may have several reasons for not doing what you are asking her to do: none of it may have anything to do with you. Perhaps the person is busy. or not feeling well or genuinely not interested in spending time with you. Rejections are part of everyday life. Don't let them bother you. Keep reaching out to others. Keep reaching out to others. When you begin to recieve positive responses then you are on the right track. It's all a matter of numbers. Count the positive responses and forget about the rejections.”
letters to everyone I know:
first: it is very early in the morning, and I might not be thinking clearly. for that reason, names will be removed when/if this is posted publicly.
secondly: if you ask me, or cant guess, I will tell you what letter is to you.
thirdly: if for some reason this makes you think you need to talk to me, let’s do it. not just talk about it to everyone else, okay?
fourth: if you made it on here, let’s face it, I love you and want you in my life.
fifth: if you don’t think one of these is to you, the only thing that means is that I’m tired and it is four in the am.
I am so so sorry that I didn’t call you back the other night. all of the sudden, there were more people at my house, and they didn’t leave till quite late. someone interesting showed up, and I will tell you all about it when I call you next. im still working out how to visit you. its funny to me that I miss you at the most random of times… it seems I will just come across myself thinking about you.
i like you, and am glad that you came to visit me. we need to see more of eachother; please be good to her.
it was good to see you last night; it makes me a lot less nervous about the summer. It’s funny how I wasn’t sure how to tell you that. It was good though, and we should do it more, if everything is good with you that is. we’ve been through a lot together, and I’m sorry if I’ve been lame lately.
I really don’t like how our relationship has been going lately. I’ve actually cried about it quite a bit. I just want to talk to you and laugh with you, without all this weird secrecy and exclusive hanging out stuff. I hurt mostly because I don’t think you think about me. And really, I think I know that we just need to talk. It’s just hard when you’re so far away and I don’t feel like I get any positive response from you. I haven’t been much better, I know. But I miss you, a lot.
You are full of such amazing positive brilliance! You have this confidence that makes you so deeply gorgeous. And I agree, there has been too little you about my life recently. Really, you’re not that far… but sort of, considering job situation.
i am glad to have met you. you have a lot to deal with right now, but are making things happen for you. and its the you part that is awesome and amazing. rock on sir.
I hope that you know how wonderful and special you are. I can’t tell you how glad I was to get your call the other day. It made me feel a hundred times better, as my day had been sort of down. I miss being around you and laughing at silly things. Let’s be bums together this week at least. or work out buddies. I’m envious of your highlight.
You amaze me kid. I can’t believe you’re leaving me so soon, but at the same time, I’m trying to understand where your heart is. It’s hard, and I’m scared, so forgive me if I say or do something dumb. You’ll be eighteen and on your own soon, just don’t forget about us when you leave and start doing whatever it is you want to do. and come by and really talk to me sometime. I love you more than you’ll probably ever know. and you’re beautiful; don’t let anyone tell you differently. also, you can always call me. always, for anything.
Can we just make out? You’re amazing. that simple.
Let’s just face the fact that you were always too cool for me. Also, you are perhaps one of the most interesting people that I have met in a long time, and I miss you already. It’s hard to think that you won’t be at Beloit next year. Really hard, because you are a stellar person. I’m glad that you came to say goodbye to me, and that I got to hug you. You need more hugs in your life I think. I’m sorry that there is so much not-fun in your life right now, and if I can do anything, let me know. I’m excited for you, because whatever you get into is going to be amazing. Thanks for putting up with this punk ass sophomore for the year.
I think you know how close you are to me; though I wish the distance bit was closer… I love the way that we just sort of click and can have the most amazing and best of times and also some of the best quality conversations I have ever had. I would take a bullet for you I think. This being out of touch with you thing is lame. Also, I don’t have a job, and since I really miss you like whoa, I might just drive up to your crazy state. It feels too hard to be away from you, and I really don’t want to think about next year.
I think that you are seriously the person that I look up to the most. You’re doing and have done such amazing things that really change and impact people. I read about what you’ve been up to and get jealous. I know that we’re friends, but I wish that I knew you better, and the time for that will certainly be next year. As we will have amazing adventures to share. Thank you for everything that you have done for me.
You are really making it happen, and I feel like I’ve missed out on big piece of it, even if they are just giggling with you for hours about the silliest of things. I hope that things are still going well for you. Also, congratulations! Though I always really knew that you could do it, it’s nice that all of your hours and hours of work finally paid off.
Man, am I glad we met, and that you can tolerate me for extended periods of time. Also, I should inform you that you are way to close to me, and once I figure out how to get to your place, oh man, I might become a permanent fixture. I hope everything with the change of scenery is going well and that you are loving every minute of it that you’re not paying rent. I am really glad that you are happy. I think it’s awesome.
I thought you were really neat when we first met, and I feel like you have this crazy hyper side that I was just starting to get to know. I feel, though, that once I started dating Nathan, you sort of took two steps back from me, which is a bummer. Perhaps there was something else, but I’m glad you’re happy now. you deserve it, and it makes you glow.
So though I am jealous of you for a zillion reasons, you are by far the sweetest person with the keenest sense of fashion and individuality. I would like to know you better.
I’ve often thought the lyrics “holding up horizons with her hands” detailed you well. I am way glad that things are as awesome for you now as they are, as if anyone deserves it, it’s you. I hope that things you were worrying about haven’t materialized and that you don’t regret that night we talked. You said you would, but I still hope that’s not how it came out. We got closer this year, and I liked that. You make me laugh and are great to talk to… plus we’re both pretty damn ridiculous.
This year, I feel like I really got to know you. More than just the surface you that may have been tolerating me previously (though I often tend to feel that way). And I’m glad. We had a lot of good times this year. Thank you, really.
We just met this year, and I’m glad. But you confuse me. I think you’re funny most times, and really amazing when serious… but still.
Wow. I met and got to know you and consider you a good friend all within one year. You are also the sort of person that inspires me with all that you say and are. You’re doing amazing things right now. I am definitely glad we lived together, as you may have made my year.
I left you for last. You’re the hardest one I think, mostly because you know pretty much everything that I think. I can’t believe I didn’t know you last year. I can’t believe that I haven’t even known you for a year. you have a way of bending time and making it nonsense. I still don’t know just what to do with myself around you.
Way to fool me. Last year, I should confess that I knew of you, and didn’t really know you, and in those sort of situations, it is pretty easy to just write someone off. But this year, I got to know you, in an unplanned pretty fantastic sort of way. You have an energy that is really unique and fantastic, and I hope that we continue to hang out and get to know each other better. I hope your summer is amazing.
I don’t know what I would do without you. Seriously.
I wish that we could have talked more. Hope it’s not another four years before I see you again. I want so very much for you to be okay and for life to be wonderful for you.
We had this bizarre sort of relationship based on circumstance for awhile, but I am really really glad that things have worked out the way they have. You are a classy persona, funny, and great to talk with. I hope that I can take that little trip with you. I’m also really glad that I didn’t let everyone else decide what to think of you for me. You’re much more than what they say.
Don’t tell me all of your hurtful secrets and then play me against each other. I’m sick of it.
You are my first love. Third grade and all, damn. Sorry if I harass you too much sometimes, and sorry that I’ve been out of touch this last school year. I will not apologize for harassing you via mail next year when I’m in hong kong. But I’ll be sending you luck cats and things of that nature, so I don’t think you’ll mind. you, me… soon.
You are crazy sexy cool and so much more. I will come out to the cities soon, and we should drink tea. I went to a store all about tea the other day, and thought of you love! You can always make me smile, though I think sometimes I confuse you, but we had some awesome times this year, and I really can’t wait to see you again. really really. I like to talk with you.
I have a crush on you.
I am glad that you started hugging me. I don’t know what happened when I was at school to change how you related to me… but I’m glad we hug, and that we talk. I can actually feel that you love me. Really though, I think that you need to work on talking to Linds. She cares about you, I know she does. The two of you are just too much the same to see it. Also, I love her, and she is amazing and capable of anything, and I know you know it… so act like it sometimes.
I went through two weeks of intensely disliking you, but then, I figured things out, and I think you’re hilarious and an interesting person. Good thing, promise.
I let you drift away from me this year, and though I was mostly removed from the surrounding drama, I suppose I’m not innocent of it. I loved talking with you last year, I feel like we make a whole lot of sense to each other, which is rare (at least for me). So I’m sorry for my part in it, and I’m sorry I missed out on (really) a year of knowing someone so awesome. Next year, new rules. How’s life?
I had a mini crush on you for awhile, in an “I’d like to be you” sort of way. You’ve got it all figured out and it’s sort of amazing. I’d be happy to help you survive a class any day, just keep on rocking this world.
I know you’re just trying to understand what’s going on, but asking me to tell you things that other people have told to me in confidence is no way to do it. This place has enough secrets and trouble working sometimes. It puts me in this next to impossible place. I love you, so much. You do so much, and have done, so much for me. This is just too hard. Also, I really am working on getting a job. I’m just a little messed up right now, and maybe someday I’ll figure it out well enough to tell you.
to all of you: i am really lucky, and wonderful. thanks. for everything.
to explain the title if you didn’t guess it:
“If you have been rejected many times in your life, then one more rejection isn't going to make a difference. If you are rejected, don't automatically assume it's your fault. The other person may have several reasons for not doing what you are asking her to do: none of it may have anything to do with you. Perhaps the person is busy. or not feeling well or genuinely not interested in spending time with you. Rejections are part of everyday life. Don't let them bother you. Keep reaching out to others. Keep reaching out to others. When you begin to recieve positive responses then you are on the right track. It's all a matter of numbers. Count the positive responses and forget about the rejections.”
letters to everyone I know:
first: it is very early in the morning, and I might not be thinking clearly. for that reason, names will be removed when/if this is posted publicly.
secondly: if you ask me, or cant guess, I will tell you what letter is to you.
thirdly: if for some reason this makes you think you need to talk to me, let’s do it. not just talk about it to everyone else, okay?
fourth: if you made it on here, let’s face it, I love you and want you in my life.
fifth: if you don’t think one of these is to you, the only thing that means is that I’m tired and it is four in the am.
I am so so sorry that I didn’t call you back the other night. all of the sudden, there were more people at my house, and they didn’t leave till quite late. someone interesting showed up, and I will tell you all about it when I call you next. im still working out how to visit you. its funny to me that I miss you at the most random of times… it seems I will just come across myself thinking about you.
i like you, and am glad that you came to visit me. we need to see more of eachother; please be good to her.
it was good to see you last night; it makes me a lot less nervous about the summer. It’s funny how I wasn’t sure how to tell you that. It was good though, and we should do it more, if everything is good with you that is. we’ve been through a lot together, and I’m sorry if I’ve been lame lately.
I really don’t like how our relationship has been going lately. I’ve actually cried about it quite a bit. I just want to talk to you and laugh with you, without all this weird secrecy and exclusive hanging out stuff. I hurt mostly because I don’t think you think about me. And really, I think I know that we just need to talk. It’s just hard when you’re so far away and I don’t feel like I get any positive response from you. I haven’t been much better, I know. But I miss you, a lot.
You are full of such amazing positive brilliance! You have this confidence that makes you so deeply gorgeous. And I agree, there has been too little you about my life recently. Really, you’re not that far… but sort of, considering job situation.
i am glad to have met you. you have a lot to deal with right now, but are making things happen for you. and its the you part that is awesome and amazing. rock on sir.
I hope that you know how wonderful and special you are. I can’t tell you how glad I was to get your call the other day. It made me feel a hundred times better, as my day had been sort of down. I miss being around you and laughing at silly things. Let’s be bums together this week at least. or work out buddies. I’m envious of your highlight.
You amaze me kid. I can’t believe you’re leaving me so soon, but at the same time, I’m trying to understand where your heart is. It’s hard, and I’m scared, so forgive me if I say or do something dumb. You’ll be eighteen and on your own soon, just don’t forget about us when you leave and start doing whatever it is you want to do. and come by and really talk to me sometime. I love you more than you’ll probably ever know. and you’re beautiful; don’t let anyone tell you differently. also, you can always call me. always, for anything.
Can we just make out? You’re amazing. that simple.
Let’s just face the fact that you were always too cool for me. Also, you are perhaps one of the most interesting people that I have met in a long time, and I miss you already. It’s hard to think that you won’t be at Beloit next year. Really hard, because you are a stellar person. I’m glad that you came to say goodbye to me, and that I got to hug you. You need more hugs in your life I think. I’m sorry that there is so much not-fun in your life right now, and if I can do anything, let me know. I’m excited for you, because whatever you get into is going to be amazing. Thanks for putting up with this punk ass sophomore for the year.
I think you know how close you are to me; though I wish the distance bit was closer… I love the way that we just sort of click and can have the most amazing and best of times and also some of the best quality conversations I have ever had. I would take a bullet for you I think. This being out of touch with you thing is lame. Also, I don’t have a job, and since I really miss you like whoa, I might just drive up to your crazy state. It feels too hard to be away from you, and I really don’t want to think about next year.
I think that you are seriously the person that I look up to the most. You’re doing and have done such amazing things that really change and impact people. I read about what you’ve been up to and get jealous. I know that we’re friends, but I wish that I knew you better, and the time for that will certainly be next year. As we will have amazing adventures to share. Thank you for everything that you have done for me.
You are really making it happen, and I feel like I’ve missed out on big piece of it, even if they are just giggling with you for hours about the silliest of things. I hope that things are still going well for you. Also, congratulations! Though I always really knew that you could do it, it’s nice that all of your hours and hours of work finally paid off.
Man, am I glad we met, and that you can tolerate me for extended periods of time. Also, I should inform you that you are way to close to me, and once I figure out how to get to your place, oh man, I might become a permanent fixture. I hope everything with the change of scenery is going well and that you are loving every minute of it that you’re not paying rent. I am really glad that you are happy. I think it’s awesome.
I thought you were really neat when we first met, and I feel like you have this crazy hyper side that I was just starting to get to know. I feel, though, that once I started dating Nathan, you sort of took two steps back from me, which is a bummer. Perhaps there was something else, but I’m glad you’re happy now. you deserve it, and it makes you glow.
So though I am jealous of you for a zillion reasons, you are by far the sweetest person with the keenest sense of fashion and individuality. I would like to know you better.
I’ve often thought the lyrics “holding up horizons with her hands” detailed you well. I am way glad that things are as awesome for you now as they are, as if anyone deserves it, it’s you. I hope that things you were worrying about haven’t materialized and that you don’t regret that night we talked. You said you would, but I still hope that’s not how it came out. We got closer this year, and I liked that. You make me laugh and are great to talk to… plus we’re both pretty damn ridiculous.
This year, I feel like I really got to know you. More than just the surface you that may have been tolerating me previously (though I often tend to feel that way). And I’m glad. We had a lot of good times this year. Thank you, really.
We just met this year, and I’m glad. But you confuse me. I think you’re funny most times, and really amazing when serious… but still.
Wow. I met and got to know you and consider you a good friend all within one year. You are also the sort of person that inspires me with all that you say and are. You’re doing amazing things right now. I am definitely glad we lived together, as you may have made my year.
I left you for last. You’re the hardest one I think, mostly because you know pretty much everything that I think. I can’t believe I didn’t know you last year. I can’t believe that I haven’t even known you for a year. you have a way of bending time and making it nonsense. I still don’t know just what to do with myself around you.
Way to fool me. Last year, I should confess that I knew of you, and didn’t really know you, and in those sort of situations, it is pretty easy to just write someone off. But this year, I got to know you, in an unplanned pretty fantastic sort of way. You have an energy that is really unique and fantastic, and I hope that we continue to hang out and get to know each other better. I hope your summer is amazing.
I don’t know what I would do without you. Seriously.
I wish that we could have talked more. Hope it’s not another four years before I see you again. I want so very much for you to be okay and for life to be wonderful for you.
We had this bizarre sort of relationship based on circumstance for awhile, but I am really really glad that things have worked out the way they have. You are a classy persona, funny, and great to talk with. I hope that I can take that little trip with you. I’m also really glad that I didn’t let everyone else decide what to think of you for me. You’re much more than what they say.
Don’t tell me all of your hurtful secrets and then play me against each other. I’m sick of it.
You are my first love. Third grade and all, damn. Sorry if I harass you too much sometimes, and sorry that I’ve been out of touch this last school year. I will not apologize for harassing you via mail next year when I’m in hong kong. But I’ll be sending you luck cats and things of that nature, so I don’t think you’ll mind. you, me… soon.
You are crazy sexy cool and so much more. I will come out to the cities soon, and we should drink tea. I went to a store all about tea the other day, and thought of you love! You can always make me smile, though I think sometimes I confuse you, but we had some awesome times this year, and I really can’t wait to see you again. really really. I like to talk with you.
I have a crush on you.
I am glad that you started hugging me. I don’t know what happened when I was at school to change how you related to me… but I’m glad we hug, and that we talk. I can actually feel that you love me. Really though, I think that you need to work on talking to Linds. She cares about you, I know she does. The two of you are just too much the same to see it. Also, I love her, and she is amazing and capable of anything, and I know you know it… so act like it sometimes.
I went through two weeks of intensely disliking you, but then, I figured things out, and I think you’re hilarious and an interesting person. Good thing, promise.
I let you drift away from me this year, and though I was mostly removed from the surrounding drama, I suppose I’m not innocent of it. I loved talking with you last year, I feel like we make a whole lot of sense to each other, which is rare (at least for me). So I’m sorry for my part in it, and I’m sorry I missed out on (really) a year of knowing someone so awesome. Next year, new rules. How’s life?
I had a mini crush on you for awhile, in an “I’d like to be you” sort of way. You’ve got it all figured out and it’s sort of amazing. I’d be happy to help you survive a class any day, just keep on rocking this world.
I know you’re just trying to understand what’s going on, but asking me to tell you things that other people have told to me in confidence is no way to do it. This place has enough secrets and trouble working sometimes. It puts me in this next to impossible place. I love you, so much. You do so much, and have done, so much for me. This is just too hard. Also, I really am working on getting a job. I’m just a little messed up right now, and maybe someday I’ll figure it out well enough to tell you.
to all of you: i am really lucky, and wonderful. thanks. for everything.