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yeah its been a while.
my life is going pretty swell but i still feel empty.
my band is doing great. we're getting shows left and right and thats what ive always wanted. we're going to be recording soon. i have an awesome girlfriend. i only get to see her like once a week but its good. shes great.
and of course theres still a lot of bullshit that goes on. my parents are getting worse everyday. i dread the day that they get old and go scenile. its horrible the way it is. they forget everything they say and end up telling me 10 times then they ask why i get mad about it. i know mom, i know dad.
ive kind of cut myself off from most of the human race. all the asshole poeple that used to be there. theyre gone. pretty much anyway. theres still a few drifters. but youll have that.
i miss a lot of my old friends. i havent been to dallas in such a long time. joe got his car so hopefully ill be able to start seeing all the people that i never see anymore.
i miss my 2 old best friends. i miss deryk so much. i never see him anymore. he works all the time. hes got his own thing going now. hes going to make it. i always knew he would. and i miss shane so much. life hasnt been the same since then. and now that joe got his car, so many memories come back. it always used to me joe deryk and shane. and now shanes gone and deryk is never around. i admit. i do try and make plans with deryk as much as possible. but i still wish i could at least talk to shane. the kid was my best firend for 3 years. they both were and now theres hardly anything.
it makes me realize that people do change over time. whether they like to or not. it happens. because life has changed so much since last year. its the winter time already and eveyrthing is so miserable. i try to make the best out of it. i spend all my time with my friends because i cant fucking stand staying in my house more than 3 hours. everything is a fucking chore. and i just dont want to be a part of it. my parents make me do so much when i am here. and i hardly am. so i dont know why i need to be involved. they dont make donald do anything. well i dont mean to complain. its just i had to do stuff when i was his age. hes just a big baby.
i dotn even know if anyone reads this anymore. i just felt like getting it all out. it feels good. i mean otherwise im pretty content with my life. i just need to figure otu what it is im missing. i wish i could be in a bunch of places at one time. that would make everythign a lot easier.
school sucks. it always will. 11th grade isnt as bad as its cracked up to be though. this past week was midterms and i was sick all week so i have to make them up on monday and tuesday. im just glad its half over already. summer is going to be a blast. hopefully.
i just hope my life gets better from here.
"Jesus Christ, that's a pretty face
The kind you'd find on someone I could save
If they don't put me away
Well, it'll be a miracle
Do you believe you're missing out
That everything good is happening somewhere else?
But with nobody in your bed
The night's hard to get through
And I will die all alone
And when I arrive I won't know anyone"
my life is going pretty swell but i still feel empty.
my band is doing great. we're getting shows left and right and thats what ive always wanted. we're going to be recording soon. i have an awesome girlfriend. i only get to see her like once a week but its good. shes great.
and of course theres still a lot of bullshit that goes on. my parents are getting worse everyday. i dread the day that they get old and go scenile. its horrible the way it is. they forget everything they say and end up telling me 10 times then they ask why i get mad about it. i know mom, i know dad.
ive kind of cut myself off from most of the human race. all the asshole poeple that used to be there. theyre gone. pretty much anyway. theres still a few drifters. but youll have that.
i miss a lot of my old friends. i havent been to dallas in such a long time. joe got his car so hopefully ill be able to start seeing all the people that i never see anymore.
i miss my 2 old best friends. i miss deryk so much. i never see him anymore. he works all the time. hes got his own thing going now. hes going to make it. i always knew he would. and i miss shane so much. life hasnt been the same since then. and now that joe got his car, so many memories come back. it always used to me joe deryk and shane. and now shanes gone and deryk is never around. i admit. i do try and make plans with deryk as much as possible. but i still wish i could at least talk to shane. the kid was my best firend for 3 years. they both were and now theres hardly anything.
it makes me realize that people do change over time. whether they like to or not. it happens. because life has changed so much since last year. its the winter time already and eveyrthing is so miserable. i try to make the best out of it. i spend all my time with my friends because i cant fucking stand staying in my house more than 3 hours. everything is a fucking chore. and i just dont want to be a part of it. my parents make me do so much when i am here. and i hardly am. so i dont know why i need to be involved. they dont make donald do anything. well i dont mean to complain. its just i had to do stuff when i was his age. hes just a big baby.
i dotn even know if anyone reads this anymore. i just felt like getting it all out. it feels good. i mean otherwise im pretty content with my life. i just need to figure otu what it is im missing. i wish i could be in a bunch of places at one time. that would make everythign a lot easier.
school sucks. it always will. 11th grade isnt as bad as its cracked up to be though. this past week was midterms and i was sick all week so i have to make them up on monday and tuesday. im just glad its half over already. summer is going to be a blast. hopefully.
i just hope my life gets better from here.
"Jesus Christ, that's a pretty face
The kind you'd find on someone I could save
If they don't put me away
Well, it'll be a miracle
Do you believe you're missing out
That everything good is happening somewhere else?
But with nobody in your bed
The night's hard to get through
And I will die all alone
And when I arrive I won't know anyone"