A gemini's mind
thru events i think, thru emotions i cry, thru feelings i get lost. in the last 2 weeks i find my self getting lost in my mind. its odd i have been here before when i decide to re-invent my self or put on new clothes for old souls.
thr a mind ....... i was bi-polar
thru a body ........i was not true
thru a soul ........ i never loved
and thru my emptyness i found i never lived!
what do i do when i am screaming and there is no sound?
people have came to me and said what is wrong or where is maima and say i am great or what do u mean i brush it off and think shit i am here do u not hear her screaming? then a 'friend" said u are not showing me any "LIFE" and i look in the mirror and see i guess what there seeing .......nothing a empty vessel. although i keep filling it its not strong enough to hold life ay more. i question why and pray for answers or just a new does of 'ummph".
The anxiety is coming back there tears are endless and the fear is strong. for months i have been putting chains on them and painting blue skies but any momment the gates will break and i will fall. i stopped taking my meds altogether i will throw in the towel and let HER win!
I have lost her and my ticket to the world!
thr a mind ....... i was bi-polar
thru a body ........i was not true
thru a soul ........ i never loved
and thru my emptyness i found i never lived!
what do i do when i am screaming and there is no sound?
people have came to me and said what is wrong or where is maima and say i am great or what do u mean i brush it off and think shit i am here do u not hear her screaming? then a 'friend" said u are not showing me any "LIFE" and i look in the mirror and see i guess what there seeing .......nothing a empty vessel. although i keep filling it its not strong enough to hold life ay more. i question why and pray for answers or just a new does of 'ummph".
The anxiety is coming back there tears are endless and the fear is strong. for months i have been putting chains on them and painting blue skies but any momment the gates will break and i will fall. i stopped taking my meds altogether i will throw in the towel and let HER win!
I have lost her and my ticket to the world!