Getting Back
Been a while, eh? Man, a lot has happened. I failed all my classes winter quarter, it was pretty abysmal, and it was entirely my fault. But I've turned over a new leaf, in that I'm taking classes I actually give a shit about, and working to maintain them. So far grades are going well, and therefore not a huge concern of mine at the moment. Which is excellent, I hate being concerned over stupid little things.
I've decided I'm going to try my hand at therapy, or psychiatry. Becoming one, not going to one, goof. =D
It seems to fit with all the literature I've read about my Myers-Briggs indicators. INFP.
Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceptive. Basically I'm a loner, I build extreme defense mechanisms for my emotions (true) and only allow a scant few people close enough to actually know what's going on with me (also true). This defense mechanism develops differently depending on the individual, for some it's perceived as shyness, for some it's extreme reservism, literally closing yourself off, for a minor few defenses take the shape of a chameleon, reacting as the Introvert sees their surroundings acting (me). Seeing as how less than 5% of the population actually are INFP's, and less than 10% of the INFP's report themselves as chameleon defense types, I'd consider myself rare. It was funny when I was first tested, I was so open and extroverted with the examiner that she was sure she'd done something wrong, "you're an introvert?!" she kept asking. This is the cool thing for me, if I'm naturally inclined to align myself with how others around me act then something intrinsic in me picks up on what other personalities people are, it'd be cool to tap into that, to be able to read people with that kind of depth. That's where the interest in psychology/psychiatry/therapy comes in for me. Imagine if I could determine a lot about a person based on something instinctual and reflect that into a general overview of how they operate as a person, that could be an extremely useful tool for analysis.
On an entirely different note, I think this Tiffany chick is pretty awesome. ^.^ I'm definitely enjoying her company, hopefully she enjoys mine as much. With any luck I won't be a lone geek this summer, a long shot I know, but a guy can dream can't he? Relating this to the above paragraph (and you thought I was just going off on a tangent) I do notice myself being a lot more closed off in that same chameleon-esque way. For instance: Tiffany doesn't curse. I do. However, around her I've noticed a marked decrease in cussing, in fact, I don't think I've used more than a handful of 4-lettered words around her thus far. Seeing as we've been in the same lecture class for almost 7 weeks together now, that's impressive (also considering how much fuckin' shit usually comes out of my mouth ^.^).
Changing gears again, the weather couldn't have possibly been better this weekend, I even managed to get outside long enough to get sunburned, it's going to fade into a nice tan overall. Additionally, Red Hot Chili Peppers surprised me with a magnificent B-side track that has definitely become my new summer anthem and I've been listening to it non-stop since I heard it yesterday (makes me wonder how many other gems they have that I haven't heard).
Speaking of which, I'm eventually going to drive Erik insane with my musical choices and my inclination to listen to the same song indefinitely 'til I can play the bass to it perfectly. I have a feeling he's starting to find me irritating on a nuanced level, which is the worst kind, the kind that you can't bring out in the open and confront if it becomes a problem. Hopefully having Liz around this summer will distract us enough from trifles like that. After all, I know I operate differently when she's around (Yeah, I know you read this from time to time Liz XD ).
Alright, I think that's all the important stuff. I'm sure I'm forgetting something, I'll update later I hope.
Apologies for the lengthy post! A lot on my mind!
I've decided I'm going to try my hand at therapy, or psychiatry. Becoming one, not going to one, goof. =D
It seems to fit with all the literature I've read about my Myers-Briggs indicators. INFP.
Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceptive. Basically I'm a loner, I build extreme defense mechanisms for my emotions (true) and only allow a scant few people close enough to actually know what's going on with me (also true). This defense mechanism develops differently depending on the individual, for some it's perceived as shyness, for some it's extreme reservism, literally closing yourself off, for a minor few defenses take the shape of a chameleon, reacting as the Introvert sees their surroundings acting (me). Seeing as how less than 5% of the population actually are INFP's, and less than 10% of the INFP's report themselves as chameleon defense types, I'd consider myself rare. It was funny when I was first tested, I was so open and extroverted with the examiner that she was sure she'd done something wrong, "you're an introvert?!" she kept asking. This is the cool thing for me, if I'm naturally inclined to align myself with how others around me act then something intrinsic in me picks up on what other personalities people are, it'd be cool to tap into that, to be able to read people with that kind of depth. That's where the interest in psychology/psychiatry/therapy comes in for me. Imagine if I could determine a lot about a person based on something instinctual and reflect that into a general overview of how they operate as a person, that could be an extremely useful tool for analysis.
On an entirely different note, I think this Tiffany chick is pretty awesome. ^.^ I'm definitely enjoying her company, hopefully she enjoys mine as much. With any luck I won't be a lone geek this summer, a long shot I know, but a guy can dream can't he? Relating this to the above paragraph (and you thought I was just going off on a tangent) I do notice myself being a lot more closed off in that same chameleon-esque way. For instance: Tiffany doesn't curse. I do. However, around her I've noticed a marked decrease in cussing, in fact, I don't think I've used more than a handful of 4-lettered words around her thus far. Seeing as we've been in the same lecture class for almost 7 weeks together now, that's impressive (also considering how much fuckin' shit usually comes out of my mouth ^.^).
Changing gears again, the weather couldn't have possibly been better this weekend, I even managed to get outside long enough to get sunburned, it's going to fade into a nice tan overall. Additionally, Red Hot Chili Peppers surprised me with a magnificent B-side track that has definitely become my new summer anthem and I've been listening to it non-stop since I heard it yesterday (makes me wonder how many other gems they have that I haven't heard).
Speaking of which, I'm eventually going to drive Erik insane with my musical choices and my inclination to listen to the same song indefinitely 'til I can play the bass to it perfectly. I have a feeling he's starting to find me irritating on a nuanced level, which is the worst kind, the kind that you can't bring out in the open and confront if it becomes a problem. Hopefully having Liz around this summer will distract us enough from trifles like that. After all, I know I operate differently when she's around (Yeah, I know you read this from time to time Liz XD ).
Alright, I think that's all the important stuff. I'm sure I'm forgetting something, I'll update later I hope.
Apologies for the lengthy post! A lot on my mind!