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I woke up this morning and when i looked around me i just said "i am such a fucking hypocrite". But honestly now that im thinking about what i did last night, i dont feel like i am one. I dont let alcohol rule my life. i am not dependent on it, i dont change becuse of it. I do it because its fun to party, but i dont party so much, that partying's no longer exciting. Its like sex. I dont want to have sex, becasue to most people it doesnt mean anything anymore. I want it to mean something when i have it. to me and to him.
I dont care anymore. Im not going to try to help people who arent going to try to help themselves. Its sad to watch people fade away because they dont know the line between having a good time, and becomeing addicted. The feeling you get isnt a good enough feeling to base more then a couple of hours around it rather then your entire week, or lives. Im guilty of this, but i am sick and tired of people feeling sorry for themselves. Im sick and tired of me feeling sorry for myself. Get your priorities straight. You can have a part of you life which revolves around partying and drugs and alcohol, fine. BUt it shouldnt be a major part of you.
Honestly drugs and alcohol shouldnt be more important to you then your best friend, because in the end who is going to help you out when you realize that you are all alone with just your drugs and alcohol. That shit can only be so comforting. Trust me i know. Ive been in the hole where my only friend was jose, but no amount could make me forget what i was hiding from. I was hiding from the world because i didnt want them to see my weakness, and now that i look at other people who are in the hole, i realize that the drugs and the alcohol was my weakness. It showed my fear for all the world to see. And now i say to you, you might not want to stop you might not want to lose that feeling of comfort, but is it worth losing evrything else. You might not see it fading away, but it is. ANd you wont realize it till its gone. You might not want to stop, your mind might be saying i like this, but i know your heart is crying out for help.
~The heart does what the mind considers stupid.~ From my pure heart to yours
I dont care anymore. Im not going to try to help people who arent going to try to help themselves. Its sad to watch people fade away because they dont know the line between having a good time, and becomeing addicted. The feeling you get isnt a good enough feeling to base more then a couple of hours around it rather then your entire week, or lives. Im guilty of this, but i am sick and tired of people feeling sorry for themselves. Im sick and tired of me feeling sorry for myself. Get your priorities straight. You can have a part of you life which revolves around partying and drugs and alcohol, fine. BUt it shouldnt be a major part of you.
Honestly drugs and alcohol shouldnt be more important to you then your best friend, because in the end who is going to help you out when you realize that you are all alone with just your drugs and alcohol. That shit can only be so comforting. Trust me i know. Ive been in the hole where my only friend was jose, but no amount could make me forget what i was hiding from. I was hiding from the world because i didnt want them to see my weakness, and now that i look at other people who are in the hole, i realize that the drugs and the alcohol was my weakness. It showed my fear for all the world to see. And now i say to you, you might not want to stop you might not want to lose that feeling of comfort, but is it worth losing evrything else. You might not see it fading away, but it is. ANd you wont realize it till its gone. You might not want to stop, your mind might be saying i like this, but i know your heart is crying out for help.
~The heart does what the mind considers stupid.~ From my pure heart to yours