Oh, stupid compy! (and other life tidbits)
So compy issues plague me, guys - I'm terribly worried about my hard drive, though it's really just been running really, really slow - abnormally slow, even for an old computer (which it is, though it's hard drive got replaced), and even for a hot weather (which it is, crazy hot, upper 90's, and very humid). So I got worried - don't ask me why, but given that sometimes, I don't panic well at all, I took gimp off, saved and then deleted a couple decent sized folders on my desktop, all hoping one, or both of those, might do the trick. Then, I defragged and consolidated and did every other thing I could think to do tonight, once the weather cooled off (you have no idea, the cool weather is absolutely orgasmic, if that is indeed a word). It is still going on, but I grew weary of not doing anything.
I suppose if I fall off the grid completely, you will know my compy died on me. :( Even now, it seems to be running quicker, but I have yet to check the hard drive to see what the situation is there - primarily, because I have no idea what I'm looking for and what to do with that.) This, after the new apocalypse started, and after I sign up for Heart of Gold giftgiving. With my computer misbehaving like this I feel like I am already behind (I know, I'm paranoid and definitely over-reacting, right?)
So that has been my night, a lot of hovering over my computer, checking stuff and praying. We've all been there, I guess. Any words of advice or encouragement, keeping in mind, I can't afford to get the hard drive replaced right now?
I've been feeling terribly guilty about not updating earlier, anyway. It has been a while, and mostly, I've become very determined to find a job, and very open minded to moving out of state, or out of town... I'd prefer to stay in the area, but, well... meh.
And my fella wants me to come & see him, something I feel a bit guilty about doing, while being unemployed (I've been on a fun boycott until I find a job, and yeah, they are stupid, but I have managed to save money that I need for insurance, car, and food and such. Just things I need, these days. You can see why I'm eager to become employed), but I feel guilty - and cranky - when I don't see him, either. We're in talks. Hopefully, we'll figure something out - I miss him a lot. Overall, talks of visits are a good thing, I think. Talks of relocation are exciting, though I have to limit it, to some extent. Some places are just too expensive - or hot, did I mention hot? - to live in. All the fun jobs (in my field, anyway) seem to be in Maine, anyway. And Hawaii, and Alaska, but that's crazy-talk - the cost of living being what it is.
My sister and I are entering our chatty phase, which consists a lot of trying to figure out what our parents deals are. Come to think of it, it's the same with all my siblings and I. It turns out, when she's not being a mom, she's actually pretty much my big sister who took me to the mall when I was a kid - incredibly easy to harass, and really very easy to talk to, once I get past her trying to be a mom to me, as well (she's 10 years older than me, so that's kinda how it's always been, like a second mom, and a sister. Weird, but kind of cool, dynamic there.)
I miss hiking, it has been a while - between the hot - or rainy weather, and the other stuff I need to do, it's not been something I've felt up to doing, and when I have, making time has been an issue. Therapeutic riding has started up again, so there are a whole new crop of riders (some are just adorable, too) to keep me busy in the lessons - its actually one of my best experiences volunteering, ever, with this organization. Plus, we got a new horse to train for lessons. He's adorable, but very mouthy. But adorable! He's a Haflinger, which is one of those breeds I love (there are a few breeders around here, too.) They're a very sturdy, well-tempered breed - the little guy just needs training of a different sort now.
I'm going to (tentatively) start doing yoga, again - I had to stop when I messed up some muscle or something. I don't know if any of you do yoga, but here's a hint if you do - if you are in the inverted staff pose, and the phone rings, get out of the pose and then answer the phone - do not answer the phone in that position, even if the phone is nearby. Areas of me hurt for a while, with that, though my fellow did indeed laugh at me and call me silly. ;P I was, but I'm better now, and raring to get started, and feel less stiff. So yay! Oh, I felt my very first earthquake aftershock ever (well, there may have been that one time when I was a kid). It was very cool (for me. Probably just for me, but still. Quakes are a novelty here, like snow is a novelty in Vegas).
That is all, I'm afraid - I've been busy, but busy isn't always exciting, or, as you can see, interesting. How are all of you all?