Falling out.
Ashums and I had a falling out about modeling yesterday. We cleaned it up afterwards, but it still makes my head hurt. She's right and I know it. I need to put up or shut up if I really want this (and I want it more then anything right now)because all this self-doubt and bullshit as much as I try to reign it in on camera does show in my work. It shows when I blank and under pressure and suddenly forget how to pose, or when I can hardly eek out an decent expression because all I'm really managing is not looking obviously unsure. It's game time, and it's about time I got with the fucking program on it. No wonder Ash was pissed about shooting with me the other day. It takes her yelling at me to get the same damn point across she's been pedaling for years.