Mar 12, 2008 07:19
Well, my big mouth got me into trouble again!
I have to learn how to stay silent - when someone says something negative to me about somebody else, I have to learn how to NOT let it come out later. Especially if I'm upset with that "somebody else."
I'm embarrassed because I've done this - I broke the confidence of someone I'm close to, and hurt someone's feelings at the same time. Didn't mean to - meant to use the negative comment as an example of how people can get wrong impressions of other people - but that's not how it was taken. Instead of the nothing I intended it to be, it became this huge issue to resolve.
I did resolve it - apologized to both the person who's confidence I broke and to the person who's feelings I hurt. That's all I can really do - other than to try to be aware of this flaw in myself.
I have to try to change that part of me - the part that cannot maintain discretion. Hey - all you readers here - if you have a secret - DON'T tell it to me - it won't stay that way.
I know why I do it - I spent the first 17 years of my life keeping some huge and terrible secrets - and rejected that behaviour for the next 25. Now it's time to find a balance between discretion and openness. I will learn how - it's just going to take some time. My goal is that I will have it figured out by this time next year.
Anyway - that's it for now...