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Hey peoples,
Its been awhile I know and Im sorry. I have been with out internet from September '05 to about 5 days ago.
Well, livin in denver colorado... with Craig (my fiance) of course. Lately I have found he has been very controlling. Like, the other night at the mongolian bbq, I was up at the grill talking to a guy about vegetables and craig comes up behind me and puts his arms around me and just stares at the guy, not saying anything. That killed our harmless conversation real fast. I mean, I cannot talk to anyone of the opposite sex at all here!! I have made no friends because of this. I miss being able to hang out with whoever I want, girl or guy, whenever I want. Now I have to spend every second with him. If this is what married life is going to be like, I dont know if I am ready. I mean, I love him, but I need some space. I need some freedom. I need some TRUST! I have never ever even thought about cheating on him and I still dont think he trusts me. Other than that the mountains scare me and the weather is great! Today is the second time it has snowed all year. The rest of the time is been small jacket weather, if not warmer.
The squirrels here rock. Ive have trained them to come inside the apartment and take food out of my hand. (Can you tell I have nothing better to do?)
The wedding we are thinking is going to be in Cape Cod now. We just want a small wedding thats in a better location than indiana. Going to go try on wedding dresses saturday. Im not looking forward to it at all. Craig made me cry yesterday because he told me my favorite one looked like a bunch of trash bags. http://www.davidsbridal.com/bridal_gowns_detail.jsp?stid=2300&prodgroup=10
I think it looks like the dress from beauty and the beast, he hates it. So now im worried that when I do pick a dress he wont like it and Ill walk down the aisle and he will hate it..
I need to get away for awhile. I need to be able to get out on my own again. Not break up, just be alone somewhere, feeling like I used to, happy.
Its been awhile I know and Im sorry. I have been with out internet from September '05 to about 5 days ago.
Well, livin in denver colorado... with Craig (my fiance) of course. Lately I have found he has been very controlling. Like, the other night at the mongolian bbq, I was up at the grill talking to a guy about vegetables and craig comes up behind me and puts his arms around me and just stares at the guy, not saying anything. That killed our harmless conversation real fast. I mean, I cannot talk to anyone of the opposite sex at all here!! I have made no friends because of this. I miss being able to hang out with whoever I want, girl or guy, whenever I want. Now I have to spend every second with him. If this is what married life is going to be like, I dont know if I am ready. I mean, I love him, but I need some space. I need some freedom. I need some TRUST! I have never ever even thought about cheating on him and I still dont think he trusts me. Other than that the mountains scare me and the weather is great! Today is the second time it has snowed all year. The rest of the time is been small jacket weather, if not warmer.
The squirrels here rock. Ive have trained them to come inside the apartment and take food out of my hand. (Can you tell I have nothing better to do?)
The wedding we are thinking is going to be in Cape Cod now. We just want a small wedding thats in a better location than indiana. Going to go try on wedding dresses saturday. Im not looking forward to it at all. Craig made me cry yesterday because he told me my favorite one looked like a bunch of trash bags. http://www.davidsbridal.com/bridal_gowns_detail.jsp?stid=2300&prodgroup=10
I think it looks like the dress from beauty and the beast, he hates it. So now im worried that when I do pick a dress he wont like it and Ill walk down the aisle and he will hate it..
I need to get away for awhile. I need to be able to get out on my own again. Not break up, just be alone somewhere, feeling like I used to, happy.