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It's already been more than enough time to recover from it and I just don't know what's wrong with me. Part of me wishes for some kind of miracle to happen, but then again I feel so mad at myself for wanting someone who crushed me to pieces. Who left without saying anything.
I was there for his highs and lows, his failures and whatnots. I supported him throughout everything and told him to never give up because I knew he was so capable of great things. He's now successful and all, and now... I just feel as if I never existed.
I don't know what I did wrong, what I said, what I did. I waited patiently for him to come home only to find myself being chased out of his car and being told straight in my face that there wasn't a future for us. I wasn't even allowed to hug him or hold his hand. I will never forget that day.
I guess I was the one who was deluded or just, hopelessly in love.. oblivious or in denial of the hovering circumstances. How foolish of me. And the most foolish thing is that I still love him with all my heart.
I need to let go.
I was there for his highs and lows, his failures and whatnots. I supported him throughout everything and told him to never give up because I knew he was so capable of great things. He's now successful and all, and now... I just feel as if I never existed.
I don't know what I did wrong, what I said, what I did. I waited patiently for him to come home only to find myself being chased out of his car and being told straight in my face that there wasn't a future for us. I wasn't even allowed to hug him or hold his hand. I will never forget that day.
I guess I was the one who was deluded or just, hopelessly in love.. oblivious or in denial of the hovering circumstances. How foolish of me. And the most foolish thing is that I still love him with all my heart.
I need to let go.